No solutions

If you don't understand about me,
no points for you to discuss about me!

Thanks for lending me your ears.
Thank you! Thanks a lot...

Because I never tell anyone about that.
It was stayed in my heart for 8 months already.

Ya, I told somebody before.
Not you, but it was my dear puppy.

I could see from his eyes.
Even he was understood me since...

He would look at me when I sad.
He would listen quietly what I said.
He would 'consult' me when I cried.
He would be here when I need him.

Feel better now.
After I voiced out my feeling yesterday.

But there was no any solution.
Everyone is avoiding...

Not yet settle...
Not yet finish...

Problems are present at anywhere.
So... Conclusion = No solutions!

Dad, I'm grow...

11th April 2009 - Happy Birthday to GUAT LIAN!
She is 19 now. And I have to wait for 8 months to get 19.
12th April 2009 - Happy Birthday to my DAD!!
He is 56 years old already. He already got his white hair.

Yesterday was Sunday. Yea... My dad's birthday.
On Saturday, I asked him.
"Ba, you got work tomorrow?"
"Yes, but I think I will back early.
What time you back to KL tomorrow?"
"Errmm... I think about 3-4pm gua..."
"3-4pm ah? I think I already come back at that time.
Still can see you before you go!"
He still have the mood to make a joke?
But I know he miss me a lot. Hehe...
"Bring your brother go for a hair cut tomorrow ya!"
"Ok ok..." I promised my dad.

I woke up early on Sunday.
But my dad went out for working already.
I sent my brother to have the breakfast,
and also to the tuition centre.
"11am, er jie. ( 2nd sis )" my brother reminded me.
"Ok, 11am we go for hair cut." I replied him.

We wanted to have the hair cut at Wong's saloon.
But the gate was locked. Haih... Never mind.
Then I drove him went to another saloon.
After having his hair cut, a handsome guy was born. :-p
When we back to Wong's saloon, the gate was opened.
Argh... Then I had a hair cut at there finally.
After that, we went to buy a cake for my dad.
I met my cousin who was older than me for 25 years.
He was same age with my mum, ok?
"What are you doing at here?" he asked.
"I want to buy a fruit cake for my dad,
today is his birthday. But here got no the cake."
"You try to find the fruit cake in another shop.
I think Sweety got this kind of cake."
Yea, I bought the beautiful fruit cake finally,
with the words "Happy Birthday, Dad."
And we were waiting for my dad at home after that.

I waited for him until I slept on the sofa.
And I got a call from Leong about 3pm.
He asked me to back to KL early,
because we had to shift into new house.
"But my dad haven't back yet."
"Call him la.....!"
"Ok, I call him now."
I started to get my dad's phone number.
"Ba, when you come back?"
"I think I won't back so early today."
"Ba, but I have to go back to KL already."
"Huh? So early?"
"Ya, because I got things to do.
And I bought a fruit cake for your birthday.
Sister and brother will celebrate with you tonight."
"Why you waste yout money to but the cake?"
"Aiya... Only once a year ma... Its ok la...
I have to go back already."
"Be careful when you driving, ok?It is going to rain."
"Ya, I know. Ok la..."
"Drive slowly ah... Ok la..."

I was packaging my things after that.
I saw my eyedrops suddenly.
But I don't care at that time.
I had to go back early because of somebody's order.
Before I leave my home, I asked my brother
to come back early to celebrate with my dad.

At the night, I called my dad again.
"Ba, have you try the cake?"
"Yes, I ate the cake already. Have you arrive?"
"Ya, today was rainning heavily."
"That's why you must drive carefully."
"Yes, I know. Ok la... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BA..."
"Ok ok... Be careful ya..."

Actually I know my dad tried to work faster today.
He wanted to meet me before I went back to KL.
Maybe he can celebrate his birthday without the cake.
But I know he wanted to celebrate with his children.
My mum was not at home already.
But now I didn't celebrate with my dad.
I know that my dad will be disappointed.
I felt regreted now,
because we will go out to eat together on previous years.
I only hoped that my sister and my brother
could celebrate with him happily.
I hoped they will not make my dad angry anymore.

I cried at night yesterday. I felt sorry to him.
I told Leong that 1st time I miss my dad so much.
I miss him a lot...
Sorry, dad because I can't celebrate your birthday with you.
I promise, I will bring you go out to eat next year.
Take care, dad. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you again.
I miss you... And love you, dad.

Waste your time de blog?

I became less blogging at here since...?
Maybe I have no time...
Maybe I need some time...
Maybe I have to concentrate in my study...
I have a few possible reasons.
But the most is...
Somebody don't like me to blog.
He thought blogging is only waste my time.
Especially for me who is not good in study.
I will get scold if I continue blogging.
But do you know?
I only can voice out my feeling at here.
And you're trying to stop me...
If there is no more blogging,
I have to get another way to express my feeling.
And you seldom listen to me.
Yes, I seldom share my feeling with you.
Even about that incident that somebody did...
Selfish? I don't know...
But you really don't like to listen to me.
And you only want me keep following you.
Stress and give up...