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我拿不到第二名

2011-06-14T21:39:00.004+08:00

我就是我，可是已经不是以前的我。

我没有很多要求，却换来没用的理由。

因为戏院，我决定以后习惯一个人看过期的DVD...

因为自私，我决定以后习惯一个人享用美食...

因为自己，我决定以后习惯一个人走在街上...

因为心情，我决定以后习惯一个人承受痛苦...

我始终拿不到第二名，永远都不可能发生的事情...

Blocked feeling...

2010-12-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

That day, I saw the scene with the characters who I know. The first feeling that I had was sad. Yea, I was really sad with your selfishness. How long the friendship that we had? And now you try to spoil it in front of me. I have nothing to say. You liked to show off… You liked to make people envy with you. However, you try to give me a lot and a lot of reasons to ignore me. I don’t need your explanation. It will make me feel disgusting. It’s ok… That was not a big deal for me. At least, I can smell your true face now. The truth is, you never think that I m the one of your friends. You only care for the others. I felt sad and disappointed with your attitude.

珍惜

2010-10-25T21:37:00.001+08:00

连续几天，我的心情糟透了。
不懂是压力，还是自己多心了。
遇到不对的人，难免会有那么多的顾虑。
所以，我知道你在想什么。
你讨厌我，我也不会喜欢你。
因为，这辈子，我不是欠你的。
请你顾好你的脸，别在我面前摆脸色。
拜托，别以为自己有好多优点！
其实，你连街边的野狗都不如！

发泄了一番，心情好多了？
不可能，身边太多小人了。
我避得了这一次，也逃不过下一次。
算了，讲也讲了，该说别的了。

最近，报纸上车祸连连，心酸不已。
大部分的往生者都是年纪轻轻的青年人。
人生只有那十多二十几年，多可惜啊！
什么长途巴士意外，金宝车祸命案…
就连自己朋友的亲人也因为车祸而逝世了。
说真的，太多了，多得让人担心。

那天早上，我开车到学校上课。
奇怪，怎么那么多车行驶得那么慢啊？
原来对面有一辆学生巴士和两辆罗里来个连环撞。
我看到学生巴士的窗口玻璃都破了。
人呢？学生们呢？他们去了哪里？没事吧？
走着走着，我看见有人带领着一群学生们走路上学去。
是巴士的错？还是罗里的疏忽？谁该负责？

下午，回家路途中，想着一些不明白的课题。
怪了，平时不塞车的村路竟然塞了十五分钟。
原来一辆小罗里在路中央发生意外了。
罗里头不见了，我却在路旁的沟渠看到了它。
路中央就只剩下罗里的身体，凹得不成形了。
路上都是满满的碎玻璃，车子慢慢地越过去。
来了许多警察和路人，也动用了两辆拖车。
司机应该伤得不轻，这场意外又是怎样发生的呢？

从小到大，老师常说马路如虎口。
这些一连串的车祸，意外验证了老师的话。
我经常开车，因此我非常明白这个道理。
所以，珍惜生命，安全第一，小心开车。
不要因为一时的疏忽，造成一世的遗憾。

在这个周末，我去了男友家的小渔村。
一路上，我看见许多小鸟在天空中飞旋。
是鸟吗？不，不是鸟！是少见的小老鹰…
比起老鹰，小鹰真的可爱多了。
就好比人，年轻的我们总比老时好看多了。
小鹰很有自信，甚至自豪地展现它那美丽的翱翔。
我们更应该好好珍惜那短暂又有限的青春。
一旦溜走，再也没有机会回到我们的身边了。

Emo Day Again

2010-09-25T21:58:00.001+08:00

Emo-ing recently…
I have my own problems.
I have my own pressure.

But you never understand me.
You never agree what I do.
You never say yes what I ask.
So, what for I tell you?
So, what for I respect you?
Since you are not respected me first as well.

I asked myself.
Did I wrong?
Did I wrong with my decision?
I have my own opinion too.
Again, I want to remind myself.
I’m going to 20.

I should have a 20 years old life.
Not a controlled life.
And you are over control on me.
I’m a teenager.
Teenagers have their life styles.
And you can’t change it with your mind.

I think I won’t tell you all these things.
Once I ask, you will scold me once.
If you can’t change, I try to change.
But please respect me as well.
I have my temper also.
If not, I will leave you one day.
Without telling you…

Can you respect my privacy?

2010-09-10T12:51:00.003+08:00

Once I back home, my buttock haven't stick on the chiar. And you keep asking me all the stupid questions.You know that I don't like this kind of questions. Where I went? Where I overnight? Hey... I just want to say only once, and I don't want to repeat anymore. What kind of attitude you had? I'm your daughter but you don't even believe me? You never respect me at all...

I'm going to 20 soon. But how you treat me? You thought that I'm still 3 years old? Or 13 years old? I have my own privacy too. I have my own opinion. But... When you gonna to hear me? You cut down my freedom, even my right of speaking. You wanted me to do this and that. But what is your reaction when I tell you about my demand? Just a simple request, and you try to ignore me. Would you know my feeling?

You are the one who made me lost the feeling to this house. You are the one who made me hate this home. You don't even let me expressing my voice. I lived for so many years. And I have my own mind but you don't even know what is that. This is because you never care about me. What you care? You should know abuot that. I can't stand it anymore. I just want my freedom and privacy back.

For this period, I don't demand anything from you. But... Please do respect me. I need my privacy so much since it was a part of my life. I just want to tell you that I know what am I doing anywhere and anytime. I'm very clear about that. I will tell you if I feel that it is the time to tell you all. Please trust me and my mind as well. Don't worry, I won't make you disappointed. I just need my freedom back.

回了就能解决吗？

2010-09-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

那天，在我家，我们聊了起来。
我说：“燕，你都快二十一了，终于可以投票了。哈哈！”
修：“对哦！二十一可以投票了。”
他接着说：“不过还是不投比较好，不然等下像第二个赵明福。嘻...”
燕说：“我要投叻！不然等下他叫我回中国就够力。”
我们都笑了，这只是个幽默形式的对话。

没错，我们都快满二十一了。
我们就快可以像其他大人一样，为自己支持的党投票了。
重点不是在这里，而是在于“回中国”。

最近，许多人都为这三个字而烦。
其实，这里多元化的特色让我们在世界排名有一脚。
为什么我们要这样伤害自己的名誉呢？
所谓的多元种族，就不应该只顾自己。
我们总不能那么自私，总得想想大局维护一切。

这个世界是大家的，我们不该分你和我。
如果这是你的，那是我的，那么世界就散了。
敌人也会慢慢地入侵占领...
趁还来得及，请大家团结一致吧！

孩子就是希望

2010-09-02T13:50:00.003+08:00

这个八月，在这个大家庭里，添了两个小生命。
长辈们欢天喜地的，年轻的也因为这份喜气热闹起来。
尤其是姑姑，做了孩子的婆婆，比谁都开心。
长辈们的笑容比谁都灿烂，连接不断...
家里来了陆陆续续的客人，可见孩子的魅力多大啊！

孩子，总是让人快乐。
他们那无忧无虑的笑容，总是平衡了我们的压力。
他们那天真可爱的脸颊，更是让我们忘了烦恼。

孩子，人们所谓的一张白纸。
总是要人家引导，才能出示一幅好的作品。
就好比画画，如果失去了耐心而无法完成，
那再也不是一幅画，而是一个半途而废的龌龊。
就这样，这张白纸不再美观，甚至是被人遗弃。

有谁会希望拥有一张长满污点的白纸？
可见，生孩子是其次，养育才是重大。
因为父母的养育足以决定孩子的未来。

看到一些幸福的孩子，在家总是有父母的宠爱。
他们不缺啥，这可是多么让人羡慕，渴望的。
最近，总会在报章上看到父母殴打孩子事件。
这些无辜的孩子，得罪他们的父母了么？
难道孩子在他们眼中就是那么令人讨厌吗？
这些孩子缺少的是爱，将来会怎样有谁会知道？

以前我总会埋怨什么的。
然而，现在的我已经学会感激。
感谢父母没有把我遗弃，感谢他们给我机会。
我有机会生存，有机会接受教育，我应该好好珍惜。

孩子，永远都是父母最大的希望。

Frienship is Forever

2010-08-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

I'm going to finish my 1st sem at UTAR.
I can't imaging that i can survive until now.
Well... First of all, I was happy to stay with my Y1S1 classmates.
Minyee, my best friend before. She needs a lot of advices in her life.
Vancy, my sifu for most of the subjects. I don't know how she study to get a colourful results. She is pro in everything...
Janice, another pro simou. She always stick with sifu one. Haha... Only one word for both of them -- Pro!!
Kok Soon, our class rep. Although he learnt everything in Chinese before, but he understand what tutor teach here. Geng la...
Sushi, a pro singer in our class. I admire her because she paid her fees by working herself. For me, I felt shamed to use my dad's money.
Chin Min, another intelligent boy in our class， with white and baby skin. Haha...
Calvin Chang, ABC!! He was American Born Chinese... Cool man! Sometimes his attitude looked like a kid. So childish. Haha... Pro in studies also.
Yi Leng, the tallest girl in my class. She was 173cm ok? So jealous with her height. She was another hardworking student in our class. She got high marks in everything also.
Yin Ching, our leader for every presentation and assignment. She was intelligent also.
Finian, a guy who don't know Chinese. He can't speak Mandarin as well. I think he is learning now. Haha... But he was cute at all. Ladygaga top fans...
Joanne, a girl with big black specs. She liked t shoot people one as I know. Haha...
Huey Tian, she looked like a big sister in our class. You can feel the wind when walking with her. XD
David, a boy that I seldom see him in the class. Skip? I don't know. But I saw his result was quite good as well.
Garden, a Melaka boy. He always home-sick one. Haha... A clubbing boy also.
Syuen Yun, I don't know her name as well. Sorry ya... She was hardworking too.
Lee Ying, a cute girl in our class. Now I still remember her smile. ^^
Lee Yee, a girl with gold n curly long hair. She always together with Syuen Yun. Best friends, I think.
Joshua, a skinny guy. By the way, he was nice too.
Pei Qi, I was not so close with her. Anyway, nice to be friend with her.
Jasline, Pei Qi's best friend. I was not so close with her also. But nice to meet her.
Sip Yee, FAF tutor loved to call her name in the class. Haha...
Fei Gi, I was not so close with her also. But she was pretty as well.
Hui Chin, another pretty girl in our class, with her temperament.
Jess, again, leng lui in the class. She was so so so slim. Haha...
Debbie, Jess's relative if I was not mistaken. She always be along with Jess.
Charles, the only one Indian boy in our class. He was quite funny.
Shamala, the only one Indian girl in my class. She was matched with Charles, right? Just kidding. Haha...
There were some classmates that I don't know their name.
I'm sorry about that, my dear Y1S1 friends.
I hoped that I will have another chance to know all of you.
Maybe we will not in a same class for next sem, which is Y1S2.
Maybe I can't meet some of you the days later, since UTAR so huge.
I hope that we can know each other forever and ever.
So, please do call me or say hi for me when you all see me on the road, even in the campus.
I will remember who you are because you stay in my life and bear in my mind forever.
Frienship is forever...

朋友是这样的

2010-08-05T12:24:00.002+08:00

原来，时间可以证明一切。

日子久了，我没有巨大的变化。
只是，我越来越不快乐了。
想起以前的日子，疑惑着...
为什么我的人生阶段那么类似？
每一段都包含了我不快乐的想法。
从小学到大学，我也接近二十。
然而朋友的定义又是什么？
原来，我就是那么一文不值。
我永远只能做你们的候补。
我却得当作什么都没发生过。
我也必须当作没有一回事。
一直以来，我真心地付出。
今天，我终算看到了回报。
我难以释怀，心却痛得辛苦。
多么希望这一切都只是一场梦。
可是，你的决定让我惊醒过来。
是你从头到尾都没有尊重我。
我在哪里都不重要，甚至渺小。
我只是你们生活里的一颗棋子。
我对你确确实实地改观了。
你不再是我认识的那个人。
而我也不应该那么傻那么单纯。
我承认，对于你，我很情绪化。
可是，我对你们还有选择吗？
我终于知道，朋友是这样的。

First Time in My Life

2010-08-01T10:08:00.002+08:00

I feel nervous now. Why? That is my first time in my life... And I'm gonna to give you my first time on this Wednesday. WTF... How ridiculous? I haven't ready yet but the time is so rush. And you said it must complete on Wednesday. So, what can I do? Be prepared? Run away?

Of course, I choose to be prepared. Don't think too much. To get my marks in assignment, I must fight for my first presentation in my life which is going to give you, UTAR and my Financial Accounting Framework 1's tutor. =.=

痛，却让我想起你

2010-07-28T23:33:00.002+08:00

今天，我又再不听话地乱吃东西了。
明知道有些东西不能碰，我却固执了。
肚子就这样痛得全身无力，朋友们无能为力。
我知道，这一切都是我自己造成的。
医生告诉我的话，我却听不进去。
漫长的黑夜，让我不禁想起当时的你。
那时的你，不会让我吃又辣又刺激的东西。
那时的你，不会让我碰冰冰冷冷的食物饮料。
那时的你，总是说为我的肠胃着想。
当时的你，说的每一句话我都会听。
现在，我开始不习惯没有你的存在。
少了关心，少了呵护，我的病渐渐回来了。
没有你的责骂，我开始对肠胃叛逆起来。
虽然我知道，你在那里还是一样的担心我。
可是，我却只能隐瞒你，不让你操心。
如果我把真相告诉你，你肯定会责怪我。
你给我的疑问是为什么没有好好照顾自己。
这时我才知道，原来我不能没有你。
这时我才发现，原来我开始想你了。

你的脆弱

2010-07-03T13:54:00.000+08:00

没什么，只是太久没上来，有点想念自己的空间。
最近，身边发生了许多事情，让我有点措手不及。
那一天，我无意中看见了平时看不见的脆弱。
平时的你都不容许眼泪那么容易掉下来。
我却在你的纸上和眼镜上看到了一滴滴的泪痕。
在我们的关心下，你依然否认自己在流泪。
收起了泪水，我仿佛见到了你的坚强是伪装的。
我并没有多说什么，你的泪有没有滴下来，
心是否正在挣扎地痛，只有你自己才知道。
你不接受我们给你的安慰，只说自己没事。
而你自己也利用了大约两小时来让自己冷静。
但我知道，你压抑着的这份心情比谁都难过。
有时候，我们在生活中往往会遇到突然来袭的波折。
我们难免在第一时间会有失望，沮丧的现象。
大多数的人都会觉得是自己的倒霉，责怪上天。
有多少人会认为这些挫折是生活上的一种考验？
有多少个人可以很容易地从沮丧重新站起来？
还记得有一天，我和爸爸在回家途中聊了起来。
车上只有我们两父女，所以爸爸也有话直说了。
爸爸显得比平时憔悴多了，头发也白了很多。
他向我诉说一个家庭之主的苦，家庭的种种压力。
妈妈怎样怎样，弟弟又怎么样，姐姐还这样那样…
我才知道，原来爸爸的压力比我大好多好多倍。
无可否认，爸爸也有失望过，甚至是沮丧过。
可是，当他知道这个家依然需要他的时候，
他都会掩饰自己的烦恼与痛苦，再次振作下去。
我相信每个人都有自己的问题，自己的压力。
只要你有信心，有毅力，问题还是会解决的。
泪流过了，心也碎了，是时候该重新站起来了吗？
是时候该把碎了的心拼回吗？你应该有了答案。
就算你失去了什么，至少你还有自己的家人朋友。
我们无时无刻都在关心你，甚至是担心你的情绪。
别再压抑自己了，就算你有权力把自己闭关起来，
你一样没有权力让心爱的家人朋友一直担心你。
只要一天不说出来，问题就会一天一天地拖下去。
若哭能让你发泄，请不要牺牲那唯一发泄情绪的方法。
总比在别人面前伪装自己不真实的一面来得好。
我们愿意静静地坐在你身边，做你忠实的聆听者。
我能够做的很少，只希望成为你的“劝告顾问”。
我们都希望，你能够想想家人，然后继续振作下去。
加油！

My uni life

2010-06-05T14:10:00.001+08:00

No cinema, no shopping malls, no more LRT.

But TESCO is here, with SUSHI KING…

I seldom eat sushi.

But I’m thinking to have a try one day.

The campus is big, wide, huge…

Even I’ve lost my way inside.

I’m gonna to bring along UTAR’s map.

I dun know the way to Block A…

I dun know how to go Block B and C.

Block D? Block E?

I dun have any idea at all.

I only know Block F, H and I.

We had our tutorials at Block H.

We had our BORING lectures at Block I.

I already started my study on last Monday.

What a poor management of UTAR…

Monday I only have one tutorial class which is only 1.5 hour.

I have classes from 8am until 8pm on Wednesday.

Well… Again from 8am to 6pm on Friday.

Of course, my break times are 4 hours.

The poor management made me waste my time.

So, the place that I spent the most time is LIBRARY.

I like UTAR’s library so much.

A good environment for studying.

From the 2^nd floor, I can enjoy the big lake view…

Which is so amazing with the beautiful scene.

Unfortunately, we are not allowed to take photo inside.

The most special thing is, students can sleep inside library.

This is one of the reason that I love the library.

They put their heads on the table, close their eyes and sleep.

I saw many of them are used to do so.

I think we are allowed to sleep inside the library.

Since there is no signboard of “ NO SLEEPING ”.

So, I like to have a nap when I feel tired during studying.

No one will chase you out of library.

About the lectures, some are good but not all.

Some lectures can make me pay attention on them.

But some… I think they have not much experiences yet.

Therefore, some lectures quite boring for me.

Even after an hour, many students escape from the hall.

Mei Hui always looks sleepy during the lectures.

And she is good in escaping from the lecture hall.

I’m not brave. I’m not dare to run away from class.

Of course, I get my new friends there.

But, sometime I think that we must be careful about that.

Some friends are not really good to you.

Yea, I can see that in this few days…

However, most of them are quite ok, nice.

But now, I have no basic knowledge of banking & finance at all.

I need to force myself to decrease my free-ing and fb-ing time.

I need to push more effort on study start from now.

I hope that I can adapt the study life at UTAR soon.

Good luck to me who are new in degree life…

Same to my friends who are new in uni life also.

记得 ---------- 张惠妹

2010-05-20T16:07:00.003+08:00

记得 ---------- 张惠妹

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

p/s: 歌词很有意思，表达了我的感动...

幸福的五月

2010-05-17T09:14:00.000+08:00

如果时间能够停留在这个幸福的五月，那多好…
如果时间能够停顿在那美满的一刻，那有多乐。
虽然我们的生活上出现了种种问题，
但不至于打倒我要你幸福快乐的意愿。
不管情况有多不允许，有多不乐观…
我都尽量用我的心，我的行动去打动你。
目的只是为了得到你那幸福而珍贵的笑容。
就算只是一个效果，那也是我的努力。
我努力地，积极地付出，只要你开心。
我知道，你所许的心愿没有那么简单。
只是还需要我们的配合，才算完成…
只是，我没有能力给你想要的东西。
但是，我能给的也是出自我的大大心意。
虽然现在的我无法在这方面上满足你，
但我相信，以后的我将有机会完成你的心愿。
时间，我们都需要的是那一分一秒的时间。
所以，给我一点时间，将来有一天，
我会尽我所能给到你梦寐已久的东西。
名牌，不管是手表还是衣服，对我而言并不重要。
在我有能力的范围之下，我是无所谓的。
我只希望有你的存在，做我完美人生的句点。
所以，当我忘了说驾车小心，凡事注意…
我真的很后悔，我非常紧张担心你。
我只能祈祷，尽快收到你的信息，你的来电。
虽然五月接近尾声，你我也得隔开两地了。
但是，这个幸福不会因此的你我而中断的。
这份幸福快乐永远都会继续走下去的。
你我的种种回忆永远都储存在我的脑海中。

最后的想法

2010-05-08T21:13:00.001+08:00

今天，我故意经过那条街。
摩托也故意放慢了下来…
看着那间空荡荡的房子，
我却回味着一连串的回忆。
那些影子不断地出现，
不停地旋涡在脑海里。
我仿佛听见了笑声，八卦新闻，是非…
然而，这一切都过去了。
地球没有因为这样而停止旋转。
时间没有因为这样而顿时停留。
而我的摩托也继续往前走。
时间过得真快，从来没有等待。
不想面临的那一天也过了好几天。
我不敢奢求什么，也没有指望。
但请求老天别把我的记忆带走…

从我决定了那一刻开始，
请你们别再问我为什么这样，
为什么要那样…好吗？
我这个决定也不是一两天决定的。
我花了好几个月的时间做出选择。
你们却不知道你们的为什么，
足以让我对我的选择有所怀疑，
甚至让我有心去改变我的决定。
压力也因此渐渐地增加，
而我也不能完完全全地处理妥当。
我只好说，我决定了的事情，
别再问我那么多的为什么。
因为，我不会回答你这么复杂的问题。

时间，很多人都不会刻意地珍惜。
可是我想珍惜的机会也没有了。
我真的很赶时间，我没有时间了。
我不能说以后的世界会是怎样。
我更不能确定我们以后会变得怎样。
只要有时间，我珍惜我们的世界。
就算剩下一分钟，我都一样看重。
只希望我们当初说好的没有忘记，
未来的梦想也永远都一样。

心情，是我的。

2010-04-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

今天是您的生日。
您脸上挂着的笑容，很慈祥。
然而，少了幸福的满足感…
我们的全家福就是缺了她。
她只是还没回来…
不过，她还记得吗？
而我，却失败了…
问自己，还有机会吗？
有，不管任何时候。

歌，有很多种。
而人，不是一样吗？
歌词，代表着心情。
而我，想为自己的心情作歌。
唱歌，不是我的兴趣。
却是我发泄心情的工具。
好想呐喊，呼吁世界…
听听我的心跳…

摩托车在路上，
我放弃了速度。
我慢慢地驾驭它，
完全不像平时的我。
微风吹向我们，
让我感到清爽万分…
原来平时我不留意的事情，
可以让我大开眼界。
就像平时繁忙的生活中，
我们忽略了最关键的部分。
原来，放松自己，就可以看到世界的大大不同…

风平浪静的晚上

2010-03-25T11:23:00.003+08:00

我（心平静和）：“今天下午你发脾气吗？发什么脾气呢？”
他（惊讶）：“没有啊！”
我靠在桌子旁边望着他。
我：“我会看不出来吗？”
他一直按着电话，一边回答我。
他：“明明就是嘛！人家睡得好好的，你就叫我起来。房间那么热，你还要叫我去里面睡。”
我：“所以你就发脾气？那当时你有没有看见家里来了客人？”
他：“. . . . . .”
我：“我问问你，你有发现你自己变了很多吗？”
他没有回答，直到我再次问他，他才摇头以表示不赞同我的看法。他的电话来了短讯，他按电话了。
我：“一个人在改变的时候，自己总是不知道的。而你也不知道的是，很多人都觉得你变了。”
他还是没有回答我。电话有信息，他马上按电话。
我：“今天，我去到学校，就有三位老师向我报告你最近的状况。你觉得她们会说些什么？”
他：“. . . . . .”
在他按电话的时候. . .
我：“就连我跟你说话的时候，你还是那么忙。生意做很大了吗？从刚才到现在，你就是按个不停，你有尊重过吗？”
他很不甘心地放下手机，假装看书。
我：“当她们问我，问什么你会变成这样时，我该怎么回答？你可以告诉我吗？我要如何解释？
你知道吗？我会很心痛啊！”
他还是没有说话。
我：“你自己想想看，之前我每一次回来的时候，你会在家吗？你真的有那么忙吗？我见到你的日子已经比不上你见到你朋友的日子了。什么活动，什么旅行，不是应该够了吗？你现在是Form 5了，你应该知道自己的责任啊！”
我望着他，他却低着头。
我：“我不是不让你出去，只是也该有个限制。在假期的一个星期里，你有多少个晚上是跟朋友出去喝茶的？我告诉你，你有四五个晚上是不在家的。你的朋友只能十年才见一面吗？不是啊！你们天天见面，还是同班同学啊！
另外，为什么家人总是联络不上你？你在外时，谁在担心你？而你却为了逃避家人的来电而关机！你别忘了，你的手机是谁买的？电话卡是谁买的？爸爸买手机给你为了方便联络你，而不是让你关机的。你这样做对吗？
好，就别说这个。你那天去Sunway玩，是怎样去的？”
他：“坐van车去的。”
我：“那你知道为什么会闹到老师那里吗？”
他：“. . . . . .”
我：“有一位女生补习后没有回家，出去到半夜才回来。她的父亲第二天到学校去问老师呢！是老师的错吗？难道她出去玩不敢跟家人报告？你知道那个女生是谁吗？是. . .啊！我早就说过，她不是个好女生！为什么你就是喜欢跟她们在一起？她那种过分的态度，是值得赞同的吗？我不认为！你的朋友就是喜欢以St.John的活动名誉来出去玩，隐瞒家人。你们有没有想过后果会是怎样？这样对老师公平吗？你们真的太自私了。
还记得你去Sunway的前一天吗？我为你订做了一个温习功课的时间表，让你有时间规划地学习。可是你跟我说了什么？你说你第二天要出去玩，不得空，要等到星期五才有空。你知道我当时的心情是怎样的吗？我失望极了，一气之下把时间表给撕了，为你做的Power Point也删除了。你成绩已经退步了，连Form 4的东西你还没掌握好。我那么想帮你，你却不领情。就算帮了你有什么用？你自己都不帮你自己啊！”
静了一阵. . .
我：“你以前不是这样的，你还记得吗？你小学告诉过我什么？那种奋斗的精神去了哪里？你还记得你曾经拿过前五名的吗？你还记得吗？”
他什么都不说。
我：“你知道自己一直在烂下去吗？难道你还想这样一直烂下去吗？你要这样的生活到什么时候？你已经十几岁了。就连小学生都听得懂我在说什么，你这即将是中学毕业生也应该知道我说的话吧？”
我再接下去说。
我：“朋友如果是好的，我不会阻止。可是我从旁发现，你的朋友都是烂苹果！我不是侮辱或说你朋友的坏话，我确实是很坦白地告诉你。虽然我不懂她们的名字，但是我了解他们的性格。我知道现在是你的叛逆期。什么事都是以自己或朋友为中心，可是你在做每一件事情的时候，有没有想过家人的感受？你的家人想的是什么，你知道吗？爸爸为什么那么关心你，你应该知道的。不然为什么每个晚上都要问，你有没有温习功课。就连你要出去玩，爸爸都不会反对。为什么呢？因为怕你不高兴，怕你生气啊！
我真的很希望你可以把书读好。不要像我这样，你会后悔的。再说，如果你平时有努力用功，成绩还不错时，我可以带你去玩玩，放松心情。
可是，现在时间不多了。你必须利用这八个月的时间来复习两年的功课。你一定要努力了。什么活动都已经够了，除了那个Form 5的学习营。”
突然，我想起了他的月考。
我：“明天不是有考试吗？你的功课还可以吗？”
他：“. . . . . .”
我：“到底是怎么样？还可以吗？”
他点点头。我想：应该是可以？
我：“那这次的考试你平均可以拿到什么Gred？”
他还是不想说话。
我：“你不说，我要怎么帮你？我怎么知道你行不行呢？”
他：“应该可以B和C这样. . .”
我：“哦！那很好。你说的哦！我不想看到有不及格的科目哦！”
我想试试让我给他的压力，变成他学习的推动力。
我：“你是我的弟弟。我当然想帮你。最重要的是，你自己的意志。希望你认真地想一想。
时间也不早了，早点睡吧！”

P/s: 突然很像在写小说。哈哈...看了一遍，要不是最后一段的“你是我的弟弟”，我会觉得好像是爸爸和孩子的对话。哈哈...

漂浮不定的早晨

2010-03-23T12:46:00.004+08:00

昨天，我很空闲地和燕跟随修到他的学校参观。
我的确想看看乡村学校与城市学校的大大不同。
没错，丹绒加弄华小分校只有区区的四位学生。
相比之下，总校的学生数量却是分校的几十倍。
乡村学校比较文静，没有繁忙或刺耳的嘈杂声。
学生们可以在一个那么凉爽优美的环境下学习，
回想以前，我却没有试过在这样的环境下上课。
可惜的是，他们没有电脑，没有收音机或冷气。
乡村学校缺乏的就是这一些对教学重要的设备。
令人感叹的是优美环境缺乏设备，美中不足啊！

来到已久没有回来看看的母校，丹绒加弄华小。
万万没有想到，我的老师们还会记得我邱丽珊。
我确实又惊又喜，连即将退休的钟副也认得我。
可笑的是她问我们为什么在这几年都没有长高。
我又气又笑，不知道怎么回答，我就是酱矮嘛！
我离开华小已有七八年了，老师们一点也没变。
站在办公室外面，许多老师陆续地问我的状况。
我非常地感谢老师们的关心及六年以来的教诲。

到了中学，第一个见到还是小小只的化学老师。
她透露了很多很多我弟弟的不好状况给我知道。
我就知道这两年来他受到朋友影响改变了不少。
接下来高数老师跟我的谈话中免不了我的弟弟。
是的，她也觉得我弟弟变得不专心，不爱上课。
这一切，都是课外活动他的猪朋狗友所引起的。
我听了心痛不已因为我认识的弟弟不是那样的。
在走下楼梯时，生物老师又再次问我弟弟的事。
我听得已经快发抖了，皱起眉头听老师的看法。
她说我弟弟跟同学去游玩至三更半夜才回到家。
我觉得很奇怪的是，为什么老师会知道这件事。
有一位女生的父亲因为不知道自女儿去了哪里，
却半夜才回家，第二天跑来学校询问有关老师。
他们总是喜欢利用学校活动的借口来隐瞒父母。
我听了很生气，因为我知道那女生是个坏女孩。
我弟弟总是喜欢与思想不成熟的猪朋狗友交往。
我不敢相信，我弟弟竟然交到了这些损友烂友！
我可以毫不犹疑，很坦白地说，他们是烂苹果！
我决定，晚上回家后好好地，慢慢地跟他谈谈。

~待续~

感慨

2010-03-17T16:12:00.003+08:00

终于，我离开了你们。
原本以为，你们不再需要我的声音。
你们也不在乎我的存在。
可是，我却只对了一半。
没错，起初你们会舍不得。
我也一样，我并没有放弃你们。
我很感激你们，给我一个学习的机会。
只是，我是时候离开。
对于你们的失望，我很抱歉。
我只能说，我想念你们。谢谢你们！

没错，我应该学习独立了。
这样我才能进入更高的阶段。
谢谢你的支持，我应该看得更远。
我希望出来的效果比我想象中的更好。
因为，我也支持你。

2010的新年

2010-02-27T12:22:00.003+08:00

除夕的凌晨，我们四点左右从吉隆坡安全抵达丹绒加弄。一路上不塞，但是还是有车子。回到家里已经是早上五点多了。我才发现，中国的伯父伯母和二姑都来了我家小住几天。我已经累得快垮了，只好话不多说跑到房里去睡。一醒来，就是吃团圆饭的时间了。菜肴是很丰富，却多得八个人也吃不完。吃了饭，我再拉着弟弟陪我去剪头发。那里的人多得我等到睡下去了。回来后，还要一边吃饭，一边听叔叔的唠叨。

初一的凌晨，爸爸给我红包后，我也把我早已包好的红包交给爸爸妈妈。之后还无聊地用描述画了一幅图（让伯父带回中国了）。早上，量带我回他家。我和他的二嫂还有外甥们聊了几句。时候不早了，我们便到朋友家拜年。每一年的行程都几乎一样，而我必须早点离开，因为我还得回金宝。这一年，量独自载我回家。他还和我妈聊了起来，我爸爸竟然没有说什么，还带他到我家后面看看嘴巴尖尖的乌龟（他们说是水鱼）。我的心情当然也是开心啦！到了金宝，邱家上上下下（左左右右）到斋馆吃晚餐。之后，全家大小还到拉曼大学外面的湖边散步。就这样，邱家的亲戚以为我爸要让我去那里读书。三姑还说不错哦！我会再考虑的啦！

初二，在去怡保前，叔叔又再跟我唠叨了半个小时。堂姐想要救我出来，可是还是失败了。之后我的阿姨进来房里，说了一句：“啊~时候不早了，下课了！下课了！回来再上课吧！”真的谢谢阿姨，不然我就被他的口水淹死了。我叔叔还是单身，是出了名的唠叨王。不管是我和弟弟，还是堂哥堂姐，就算是表哥表姐都怕了他，每次见到他都先闪为妙。我去了怡保--外曾祖母的家。吃了二舅公的大餐，还拿了他的红包。哈哈！今年，三舅公也从缅甸回来。他和缅甸老婆生的一对女儿可爱极了，很有洋人的风味呢！此外，住在新加坡的三姨婆和她的女儿女婿都有回来。

初三一早，我们五辆车去了金马伦高原。老人家就是喜欢去那里买菜。可是，人山人海，车变长龙，交通阻塞严重到引起爸爸的忍耐度提到最高点。唉，佳节出门总是会遇到这种情况的。下山后，回金宝的路程还塞了整个小时，爸爸气得没话说，因为当时他人有三急，加上肚子又在打鼓。以后佳节不要出门咯！嘻嘻！

初四，我们去了Teluk Batik来代替昨天不愉快的旅程。由于路上没有车而我叔叔却驾得很慢，加上叔叔对那里的路不太认识，我爸爸又气了。最后，叔叔绕了一大圈才去到那里。我爸爸也就这样算了。当天的海浪又多又大。海水真的很咸，好不习惯。加上天气炎热，我的皮肤多了一层黑皮。哈哈！晚上，在姑姑家吃了晚饭后，我们便回家了。

休息了一天，初六时，我们带了中国的亲戚到马六甲走一趟。天气炎热，还一直要爬楼梯，真后悔答应跟他们一起去马六甲。不过说真的，我已有四，五年没有去马六甲了。就回味一下咯！初七的早上，我和量还有再阳到育群小学画壁画。一天的时间肯定无法完成，所以我们决定第二天再来完成它。看看海底世界，多漂亮。纸和粗糙的墙壁大大不同，所以要用铅笔在墙上作画真不简单啊！不过，只要小朋友们开心，我们也会开心啊！哈哈！

初八的傍晚，我独自开车回到吉隆坡因为第二天还要回到工作岗位。我真的好希望，我的新年愿望都能一一实现。在这里，祝福大家心想事成，万事如意；更希望今年比去年更好！

教育可以改变吗？

2010-01-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

你明知道我们的时间有限，你也知道自己应该做什么。
可是你却不懂得利用时间，你却不知道自己在做什么。
我已不是第一次观察你了，你应该知道我是关心你的。
那天听说你在班上的举动不礼貌，不尊重老师的宗教。
我也听说你既有可能会被开除，你的母亲非常的担心。
我们来到了一间无人的课室，她希望我们好好地劝你。
她要你很有诚意地向我们道歉不果，失望地离开课室。
我们所说的话，你不是听不懂，因为我看见你流泪了。
因为最后的机会，你终于很有诚心地向我们鞠躬道歉。
你的母亲告诉我你是因为某些事情导致心理不太平衡。
但不要紧，我们会帮你的。我希望可以看到正面的你。

小孩们的心灵其实可以很简单，为何却把他们弄复杂？
有一个小女孩放学的时候很开心，她说爸爸会来接她。
她说她的爸爸在外工作，时常都是由妈妈来接她回家。
恰巧，我们正用红包来折制金鱼，我们玩得不亦乐乎。
她告诉我她要折金鱼给她家里的所有人，也包括女佣。
我陪她完成她的小小心愿，至到她的爸爸来接她回家。
她把最后的三只金鱼给完成了，也带了七只金鱼回家。
在她穿着校鞋时，她的弟妹好像有什么东西跟她说的。
只有一年级的她体型很小，小得让人总是想要呵护她。
可是我却看到了不同的画面，她不是我想象的那么弱。
小小的她就好像个大姐姐，懂得安慰与呵护她的弟妹。
那画面突然让我有一种感觉涌上心头，我却无法形容。
其实他们都会成长学习，发挥潜能，而我们正在协助。

今天有位学生的父亲，耽误了工作来到他孩子的学校。
他的目的很简单，为的就是帮孩子买新学年的运动衣。
在等候的我看到了那位父亲毫无抗拒地在烈日下等候。
留着汗水的他，看见孩子背着书包出来时，满脸笑容。
他的疲劳也都忘了，他可是个非常尽责的慈祥父亲啊！
除此之外，那天我也遇见过了一位男学生的野蛮父亲。
当他上来的时候，全身都是烟酒味，还破口大骂孩子。
我看了都感到心酸，孩子的心灵就这样被父亲污染了。
那位父亲从不顾虑孩子的感受，那孩子又会怎么想呢？
孩子会怀疑父爱去了哪里，甚至再也不会期待父爱了。
其实他们的希望很简单，就是有个让他幸福快乐的家。

教育行业的确不简单，我们服务的是那群天真的孩子。
对我而言，我不会要求或强迫他们拿好成绩给我看看。
不管在品行上，还是学业运动方面，有改善就是进步。
而你们所答应我的事情，真的好希望看到你们的改变。

Did I? Should I?

2010-01-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

Did I choose the right way? Did I think properly before? Should I change my way start from now? Is it too late? Many people asked me to follow my real thinking or feeling. But they never think that why should I ask them if I already know the answer. Will you ask your friends if you already know that 1-1=0? ( I don't want to use 1+1=2 because it is too simple. Haha... ) Will you ask your friends if you already know your own problems? Some will say yes and some will say no. For me, depends on what problem is it. Everyone has his or her point. I already entered a room, a non-light room which was full with exploitation but a little kindness. This made me so sad, even more stress recently. I felt suffered and tired in that kind of room. I wanted to escape but I needed to wait. I needed to wait for a good timing. Sometime, I wonder what is the limitation for exploitation. How it work? No answer at all... I had a friend who has been disappointed in a love affair, I think. I knew he was very sad at this moment. And what I told him was the same thing. Sometimes, we would like to persist in between holding and giving up. So, we do what we should do for now. But how bout me? I felt stressed when I gave him this sentences. This world is going to end soon. Did I know what should I did? I need a plan, a plan for my future. Even just one day...

31st December 2009 - My 19th Birthday

2010-01-02T11:04:00.004+08:00

Yea, it was the end of 2009...
And i can't see anything on the sky at genting...
When we were coundown-ing on 24th DEc 2009 night.
I had my 3 days job for the last week.
I had a gathering with my previous colleague.
Lian Ay Ling is going to study at UTAR Sg. Long.
Wendy is going back to Sabah to continue her study.
Vinjing is going back to her school for Form 4 this year.
And me, will stay at here to wait for them coming back.
That night, we went to celebrate sl's birthday.
It was really really unforgettable day for me!!
Yea, althought it was not my birthday...
And I celebrated my birthday at 12am at sy's house.
Thanks for choosing my favourite Pikachu cake.
The 1st one who bless me was not important anymore.
Because everyone had same position in my heart.
I was fair to everyone. No extra love, no cheating...
After I woke up, we went for breakfast at Wangsa Maju.
He got work on my birthday, as a tuition teacher.
He asked me to join his family due to scare me alone.
Yea, I went out with his family members finally.
His mum, 3 sisters & his sis's kids included me in a car.
We went to Tong Shan Hospital for his mum's checking.
We ate my Pikachu cake in the hospital canteen.
They realised that day was my 19th birthday...
And the kids said " Happy Birthday " for me sincerity.
They were so cute at all... They were naive.
After that, we went shopping at 1 Utama, Kepong.
I played happily with the 3 kids.
The oldest one liked to tell me stories.
She already told me don't know how many stories.
While his mum and his sisters were shopping at all.
They went to boutique, jewellery shop, and so on...
They bought me a T-shirt and a pants at there.
I was shocked and wanted to give back money for them.
Because this present was not cheap at all.
They said that was their 1st time to give me a present.
And asked me to accept it. Finally, I did...
Thank you for his mum and his sisters...
After that, we back home to wait for him & his 2nd bro.
At night, we went to countdown-ing for 2010.
The celebration was located at Desa Park City.
Finally, we enjoyed the fireworks for about 10 minutes.
That time, I satisfied with overing my 19th birthday.
And it was a new beginning for 2010. Happy New Year!

But I'm still thinking that I am a fool...
Yes, I am...

汤圆

2009-12-22T11:49:00.000+08:00

我忘了前年有没有吃汤圆，印象中应该有吧！
我已忘了去年的冬至，我是否也有品尝汤圆。
今年的冬至，我不敢想我有没有机会吃汤圆。
因为，二零零九年的冬至，我还在外面工作。
当我要回家时，那已是冬至过后的第三天了。
不知道我那最近才温暖起来的家还有汤圆吗？
不知道我那最近学会体谅的妈妈有做汤圆吗？
不知道我那一直都在操劳的爸爸有吃汤圆吗？
人家总是告诉我，吃了汤圆就等于老了一岁。
如果是这样，我倒不想爸爸妈妈吃了老一岁。
有哪一位子女是希望自己的爸妈越吃越老呢？
但每年的冬至，我却希望我弟弟吃了大一岁。
真的好希望他快高长大，思想成熟乖乖听话。
这样一来，弟弟就可以不必再让我们操心了。
安顺的阿姨应该会有做汤圆给我姐姐品尝吧？
虽然不是妈妈做的，不过希望姐姐吃得开心。
在安顺的她现在有工作，不再让我们担心了。
虽然老家只有我爸妈和弟弟三人一起过冬至，
但我希望他们和平地快乐地享受冬至和汤圆。
当我回家时，冬至过了，汤圆没了都不要紧。
因为，我那慢慢温暖起来的家才是最重要的！

在此，希望各位在这个冬至吃了汤圆大团圆！

孩子们，加油！

2009-12-19T13:55:00.007+08:00

结束了，一切都结束了。
就在星期四，伴我成长生活营落幕了。
长达四个星期的假期生活营，
哭过的哭过了，笑的也笑过了。
一路上看着他们的改变，
我们都笑了，意味着他们进步了。
虽然还是有一些问题学生，
但我们还是对他们有一点点的期望。
星期三是生活营的最后第二天，
连老师因为家事而提早离开。
同学们对连老师依依不舍，
再加上伤感的音乐从我电脑播放出来，
他们早已在连老师的致词中落泪。
嘉淇，连老师最疼的一个学生。
她并不知道她妈妈因为难产而去世了，
所以连老师对她特别照顾。
在连老师走了以后，
嘉淇亲手画了连老师，
再抱着那幅图画痛哭。
那场面真叫人心酸啊！
星期四，生活营的最后一天了。
有的男生穿的很帅，很有型。
有的女生打扮得漂漂亮亮。
最后一天了，他们当然是尽情地玩。
阿彬，是个坏蛋懒惰虫。
前一天因为一直说谎而被我罚了。
但在星期四时，他穿得帅帅的，
也把那件事忘到干干净净了。
他又跑又跳，真拿他没办法。
院长就跟他说了一句话。
“我知道你今天很靓仔，很帅，
但是靓仔不是大完的，
所以不要过分地跑到这样。”
老师们都笑饱了。哈哈！
在候老师为他们准备最后的游戏时，
我却负责和他们谈谈心。
以下是邱老师给他们的话：
今天是大家的最后一天了。
你们再也看不到老师，
你们再也见不到老师生气，
再也看不到老师骂你们，
再也不会看到老师处罚你们。
老师还是希望你们继续进步。
你们不用为老师而哭...
我们也不值得你们为我们哭。
因为老师很凶，很坏蛋，
时常骂你们，时常用藤条打你们。
不管怎样，老师都是为你们好。
生活营结束后，你们就等于毕业了。
你们都长大了，是时候懂事了。
你们都不能再那么任性调皮了。
答应老师乖乖听话，好不好？
说到这里，他们的头都低了下来。
虽然心里难受，他们还是说了“好！”
游戏过后，茶会就开始了。
一些学生还会拿食物给我们吃，
果然是教导有方啊！哈哈！
之后，院长宣布获胜的组别是小虎。
他们本来是排在第二的，
之后因为他们的努力和团结，
超越星星组而拿下第一名。
最后我们有最佳作文奖，
霆浩的确是有写作天分的。
接下来就是最佳进步奖，
文浩是真的进步了很多。
以前他一直都会有负面的想法，
现在他都改观了，拥有了正面想法。
最佳女学员是Jessica...
只要她改掉那小小的缺点，
她就真的是一个又乖又踊跃的女生。
进杰就是最佳男学员，
他自己也没想到可以拿奖。
无可否认，他真的很符合那些条件。
之后他告诉我说他不是好学员。
我劝他说，这都是老师们的决定。
我们都认同是哪个人就是那个人。
“老师们都对你有信心，
我们都相信你可以做到的，
为什么你对自己那么没有信心呢？
你也不小了，会照顾其他人了，
要告诉自己是可以的，知道吗？”
他听了点点头，说了：“ 知道！”
过后，老师们就好象开签唱会一样。
大部分的学生都拿着礼物给我们签名。
当天，我们拍了很多很多的照片。
这些都是我们在星光的回忆。
眼看老师与学生们一个一个地离开，
我才知道我有多不舍这个生活营，
多不舍这里的每一个老师每一位学生。
连老师说的一点也没错，
世上没有不散之席。
有一天，我们还是要分开。
不要因为这次的分离而感到悲伤难过。
老师希望你们不要放弃，努力向前冲。
以后有缘有的话，我们还会再相聚的。
现在，让我们一起加油！加油！

cooperation

2009-12-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i followed seow yen's car to pwtc for edu fair. thanks a lot, uncle & aunty! well... i took some informations of courses from there bcoz i dunno what course shud i choose & study for my future. haih... wat a big problem now. i collected MBBS course for cl. and biotech or nursing for me as well...
today, we were so angry wit the monkeys. complained tis, complained tat... but well, we carried out a special activity today. it was cooking! teachers had to brings the team members went for the market to buy the ingredients wit onli RM12.00. =.= they were so so so excited.
our team decided to prepare a pot of soup. tats my idea ok? haha... teachers had onli giv them advices but not cook for them. so i asked them to insert the chicken cubes to boil the water n put fishballs 1st. and then taufu... after tat the purple vegetable! and then bla bla bla... siap!! we were the faster!! haha... after tat, my team members quarreled. i talked a lot to them wit some advices. i know they understood wat i said bcoz they felt guilty. haha...
one group prepared fruit n vegetables. another one was tang yuan... we waited for our principal to judge the result. but she asked us to try aso. wahaha... i liked my team's soup lo... the other teachers said NICE!! haha... finally, principal gav the no 1 for my team! yeah!!! the children were so happy. well... finally, all the soup finished by them. i onli tried for 3 spoons lo... T.T
well... i think they start to know wat s cooperation and the power collected by all the members together. i saw some improvement in tat team today. they were no more bising, no more gaduh, no more marah... keep it on, children. u all can do the best! gud luck!! =)

一只大狼

2009-12-05T11:16:00.002+08:00

你只会说你知道他们在想什么，
你只会说他们心里其实有心机，
你也只会说他们已开始作怪了。
但是，为什么你不想想你自己？
你知道你的心里在想些什么吗？
你不觉得你自己也会有心机吗？
你不认为自己也开始在作怪了？
你的眼神一天比一天更恐怖了，
让我们都一致认同对你有意见。
你对人的态度已开始变回原形，
让我们不得已对你有极大防备。
其实最有心机的是你这只大狼！
其实早就作怪的是你这只坏蛋！
你那一副正正经经好好人的脸，
真的让我们被你欺骗了好几天。
人不可貌相，海水不能斗量啊！
难怪会有那么多人见到你就跑。
你怎么看不清楚你有的是什么？
为何还不甘心地去争取别人的？
难道你不知道就因为你的自私，
就会造成你四周围的人受苦吗？
是不是这样你就会活得更开心？
为何你的思想越来越恐怖变态？
我们是从你的讲话语气得知的。
你不用偷偷地神秘地观察我们，
你有胆这样我们也有胆那样的。
我只想在这里告诉你这只大狼，
虽然报应还没找上你家的洞口，
但我相信迟早你会一无所有的。

老师的第二天

2009-11-26T20:02:00.002+08:00

不知不觉，在那里教了两天。
虽然不能再迟一点起来，
虽然放工的时候会很累，
但是我还相当满意现在的生活。
总觉得比以前更充实了，
满足感也在增加了。
他们都很乖，很听话。
当然，小孩也有顽皮的时候。
但是在我心中，他们算好多了。
有满，我知道你喜欢领导大家。
但有时候其他人会对你的处事方法有意见哦！
领导者不能每一次都那么霸道的。
Hanson，不是很handsome，
是老师们眼中的坏蛋王。
他是我的学生，所以印象非常深刻。
半小时内只给我抄几个字，其他同学都做完了。
你说我气不气？骂了又骂还是一样。
下次抄快一点可以吗？
因为这样会浪费其他人的时间。
俊翰，最近很爱粘着我，一直要我加分数。
听话就加咯！还是那句话。哈哈！
阿彬，我班上的肥仔，功课还不错，
他是蛮听话的，只是很爱讲话。
颖贤，它是超爱哭的小少爷。
他说不要就是不要，我也没办法。
I don't want! 是他天天的口头禅。
俊杰，他很可爱，是个聪明的孩子。
所有功课都难不到他，但有时也会粗心。
如萍，头脑比较不好，但她很乖。
她会帮我擦白板或其他事情。
李欣，你做姐姐的应该以身作则。
你再这样懒下去的话，
你的妹妹就要超越你了。
欣桐，相当好学的孩子。
她也是还蛮乖巧的。
Christopher，他是很可爱的。
也算是个听话的孩子。
今天生病了，要喝多多水哦！
俊豪，最吵最多话的一个小男生。
他每次都把老师们的岁数猜到很老才甘愿。
晓册，名字很特别的一个女生。
她是今天新来的一个可爱妹妹。
她的妈妈要求她在这里至少学到七的乘法表。
这就是我下星期的任务啦！
她很好玩，有的玩她就不要妈妈了。
还有很多爱玩的小朋友，
我无法在这里一一说出来。
很多学生的名字，我还不太会记得。
但是老师会尽量把每一个人的名字都记住的。
就给我几天的时间好不好？
你们看！才两天我就记住了十几个名字叻！
和你们一起唱歌跳舞，玩游戏，吃午餐，
给你们不同方式的补习，你们开心吗？
下星期，我会与你们进行一连串的活动，
保证你们假期也不觉得闷。

cousin's wedding

2009-11-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

last tuesday...

i went back to tk after my last paper in tarc n my lunch at gk. in the evening, i straight away went to kampar for my cousin's wedding party. yea, a 2 hours journey made me so so so tired. when i reached there, i was only ate ate ate wat my brother took for me. haha... and my biggest cousin brother asked me to drink wit him. my mum, my sis and my brother aso kena... i said carlsberg but he brought tiger for us. wat the hell... i think he was already mabuk b4 we start to drink. tiger aso no prblem la... den we keep joking joking n joking at that nite.

the next day...

they all called me woke up in the early morning... my mum asked all the gals gals n boys boys follow my cousin go to fetch the bride. learn the tricks tat prepared by the "sisters", kononnya. den we ma go lo... 1st time to be "brother". hoho... but i learnt nothing at all. haha... after tat, we back home again for drinking tea n taking angpau, of course! ^^

in the evening...

we had the wedding dinner at kampar. there were 6 tables for my cousin's malay frens. the decoration was so so so beautiful. i thought the theme was "romantic". haha... the nanyang siang pau n magnum had sponsored wat wat wat bla bla bla... the musics in the dinner were soft n nice. no sing k at tat nite. my cousin asked a band from kl to perform their shows all the time. RM15,000 for the band! oh my god... the wedding cake was came out by itself from the bottom of table. firecrackers were light up when my cousin n his wife cut the cake. so romantic... the wedding photos which shown on the 2 big screens were so nice. RM12,000 for only the wedding photos. no wonder so beautiful la... my cousin spent a lot of money on his wedding, i think. after the dinner, i went back to tk. i reached tk was already midnite.

and tis few days i did nothing at home. eating, watching, playing n sleeping... but now i already at kl. i will start to find a job tomolo. nope, some jobs... gud luck to myself la... n nowadays the crimes is serious-ing. pls lock the door immediately when u come out or go in. be kful wit ur handphones, handbags n wallets...

Random Post

2009-09-23T16:30:00.002+08:00

I knew you did all the best for us. Thanks for all... And once again, happy birthday to Qiao Er and Chin Pu. Keep charming everyday!!

I'm here, KL. Ready for my study life. I talked a lot with my dad during my holidays. About my study... About my brother, my sister and even my mum. We went out for dinner at the same restaurant for 4 days. First day, my dad invited my neighbour who lived alone. His children never come back during the holidays. Some were busying with their new jobs, some of them busying dating, as I heard. Now I know... The children getting bigger, the lesser the time to spent with their family. So I will appreciate the time that I spent with my dad and my brother start from now.

Since my mum back from Singapore, I became more silent. I don't like to talk in front of her. I knew there was a problem which was a big gap between of us. And we never solve it... I had tried to talk with my mum but I failed. Sorry, give me some time please.

I was studied and practising the exercises of complex number in Pure Maths yesterday. I found that I lost a lots. And now I tried to find it back. Somebody told me that it was not too late. I hoped so... I have to rush and rush... To complete all the papers.

My target for tonight is : Biology. I will start from gene technology in textbook. But now... Waiting for movie -- WHERE GOT GHOST?! Yeah!!!

Movie for 3 girls

2009-09-09T20:48:00.004+08:00

Today no class right? But I miss out 09:09:09 on 09/09/09. I was in my dream at that time. Today was my holiday after trial exam. Yea, I went out for a movie with two sam pat girls. We planned to watch Vengeance since yesterday. I was the head, I think. Wahaha... Shu Ying was the secretary. She checked for us the movie's showtime and bla bla bla... And Siew Lee did nothing! Nothing!! She was busy wtf-ing with her line ( as I know ). Haha...

We met at KLCC LRT Station today. Siew Lee and I were shocked when we saw Shu Ying today. OMG!!! Short skirt with high heels!! We never see her with short skirt and high heels de lo... Such a pretty girl who looked mature... And she was so tall with her heels. Totally different compared to her look in college. Really totally different!! Siew Lee and me were talking about her non-stop. Haha... Very beautiful lo... Suitable with white colour lo... And bla bla bla lo...

Before our lunch, we went to buy the tickets. I noticed that the Malay boy never pay attention when we bought the tickets. I asked them in Mandarin, " do you notice that he is looking at Shu Ying only?" Haha... Shu Ying shy shy le... Of course la... Pretty girl what?! We took Mcdonald as our breakfast + lunch. Talking a lot of funny funny things... Yea, we were lame. No, Siew Lee and me were lame. She was the lame queen what...

Well... The show was about 2 hours. It was about a man and his family were killed. His father-in-law wanted to find out the murderer and he asked for help from 3 men. We were shocked because of the sound of their weapons. So high the volume... Sometimes, some part of the story quite funny. And Shu Ying who sat beside me was laughing non-stop. Yea, the fatty very cute. Haha... But I only could see all the people were sat at the 2 back rows of seats. What the hell... The others were empty! Because of this, we could hear the sound of laugh from somebody. Yea, that was Shu Ying. Not only her la... Me and Siew Lee also liked 2 sam pat girls la... Suddenly, Siew Lee got a message from Ah Loke who saw us walking around KLCC. Wah... His observation quite good.

We went back at 4 something by LRT. I was so so so tired when I arrived home. Shu Ying showed me a video. What the biggest wit....? I almost vomit at that time. So unbelieveable! What the hell to show me that thing? Yerrrr... At night, I felt that I was not feeling well. My body was cold and I got headache. Was I too tired? Or what else?

Good night, everyone. The first class for later is 8:00am. Back to normal life...

10/09/2009 (0037)

一条蛇的启发

2009-09-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

那天晚上，我和弟弟在家里。突然，我弟说他要和朋友出去喝茶。这也难怪他，家里只有两个人，难免会闷的。我说：“早点回来。”之后他就出门了。他出门没多久，我便从书房里走出来，准备看看电视打发时间。坐在懒惰椅上，让我一瞬间地想起我家的四周围。后面是河，有时还会无意间看到大大只的四脚蛇。隔壁都是草丛，好久都没打理了。就在这时候，我的脑海里出现了之前有蛇爬进我家门口的画面，然后都是被我爸爸抓到。不知道为什么，对着电视的我突然有一种预感，心想：不知道今天会不会又有蛇跑进来呢？我站了起来，往我家门口的方向走去。我的天啊！我呆住了。竟然有一条黑色瘦瘦的蛇卷着我家门口！我第一时间就吓倒了。为什么整个画面都在我预料之中？为什么我所想的事情都发生了？为什么？我无法解释。我拿起手机，马上打给在外的爸爸。毕竟我一个女生也无法做什么。我一直望着那条蛇，还是不明白为什么它会出现在我的预言中？它是不是在暗示我什么事情？这时候，我的邻居走过来了，他说是我爸爸打电话给他的。我告诉他，门口有条蛇。他拿了一支长长的树枝，钩起了那条蛇。之后把它给打死了。我向他说了谢谢，他也走了。那时，我已没心情看电视节目了。那条蛇依然还在我脑海中，不愿离去。我再想，是不是把一件事情想得太入神，就会出现在现实生活中？那为什么我一直想着要发达，但是我还是没有发达呢？这会不会是一种念力呢？其实，我们脑袋所想的，很多时候都会与生活息息相关的。但有时候，我们万万没想到，有些事情来得太突然了，所以有点措手不及地去面对它。有人说，成功都是因为有梦想。但是，只有梦想，没有努力，会成功吗？

My brother was grew up!

2009-08-12T12:44:00.006+08:00

I went back last week, since I had 2 weeks never go back already. My mum was not at home. She went to Singapore for her job. And my sister... She started to work finally!! She stayed at home for don't know how many days, how many months or how many years already. Haha... And now she is staying with my aunt at Teluk Intan for working.

My brother had fever when I reached home. "What doctor said?" I asked him. "Normal fever only. Taking medicines now..." He spoke to me softly. I was walking around my house. Not bad! Even my house had no any girl or woman nowadays, my house still tidy and clean. I can't imaging that, 2 males could take care of the cleaness of the house.My brother did all the houseworks! And he is only 15 years old and 10 months now.

He mopped the floor. I almost fall down because of the slippery floor. He actived the washing machine to wash all the clothes, included my T-shirts and pants also. He folded all the clothes. He knew how to keep all the things. He did everything. Once again, he did all the houseworks!! My dad had to work. He had not enough time to take care of my brother. So my brother went to school by bicycle, went to tuition by bicycle. He took breakfast and lunch alone at outside, I think. Sometimes, he took the meals at home to save money. On Friday, even his was sicked to have the fever, but he still attended all the classes, went by himself on bicycle. For me, I will skip the classes you know?

He heard to me. He did revision on his study. He would ask me if he faced some problems. He seldom take pocket money from my dad. On Sunday morning, I took him went for breakfast. I paid with RM50. "Why don't tell me just now? I have small cash ma..." He said. "Never mind la... The money have to be used also." I told him. Even he seldom get the pocket money from my dad, he still think to pay for me.I felt heart-touched. He changed a lot. I could see that... Before I started my journey went back to KL, I told him. "Study hard ah... If you need money, just tell me." "Emm..." He answered me. Then he helped me to put the things into my car.

My brother started to grow up. He really became obedient. I think my dad will be very happy. I felt satisfied because he became mature. I think he started to know how to take care of himself without the help of anybody. And I will appreciate what he did during the period of 3 females were not at home. I m proud of you, brother. Thanks a lot, brother.

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On Monday morning, I woke up so so so early. Everyone was same with me la... Our purpose was to check our AS Level result! I checked SY's result first. And I told her result by sms. She was shocked and called me immediately. Yea, she got a good result. "Really? Really or not?" She asked me the same question don't know how many times already. Haiya... SY, I will not lie to you de la... Relax a bit! Haha... I think she was shouting in the LRT at that time. Malu la... Please don't shout in the LRT next time. If not, Ah Gong Ah Mak will be shocked because of you leh! Haha... And I got a normal result. Ok la... But I don't really satisfy with the Maths. I expected a higher gred for my Maths. WTH... So sad about this. Well... It was passed.

That day, JC, SL, SY, CL and me went to sing k at Sg. Wang for celebration. After that, we went for a movie--Overheard. Quite satisfied with the movie. Well... We faced some problems when we back. Only a bit error la... Sorry, SY. I never think about something. And I... Yea, I felt sorry to you. Sorry to SY and sorry to everyone...

SY had explained to me at night. But I still wan to say sorry lo... The next day morning, SY came to my house. We talked a lot about the incident. Emm... Let it pass ba...

I haven't tell my dad about my result. Give me some time. I will explain to him de. I m going to stop here. And stop "ordering" me please... I m tired.

无知与成熟

2009-08-02T13:46:00.005+08:00

有时候，有些事情，
都有很多很多的可能性。
每当我们选择相信其一时，
都会跟着自己的感觉走下去。
但是后来才发现，
自己的想法比别人的多绕了一大圈。
尝试慢慢地走到终点，
却发现已没有机会走出来。
就这样，时间被浪费了。
精神与努力也被消耗了。
自信心也随着破碎了。
人大了，压力也自然多了。
不是每个人都能克服压力，
但是每个人都能寻求快乐。
活在压力的世界中，
其实快乐也是存在的。
每个人往往都说自己有压力，
那是因为他们拥有负面的想法。
为什么别人一开始就想到了，
而我却还在原地呢？
为什么我选了这条路，
但后来才知道我错了，
而别人的那条路才是对的？
我不断想了又想，
才知道不是观察力的问题，
而是自己做的努力不够好。
从头到尾，我只是在敷衍自己！
我自认思想已经成熟了，
其实最无知的是我自己。
所谓“人生短短几十年”，
我的时间也不多了。
我无法预知自己什么时候离开。
但我却还有许多未完成的任务。
我决定在我离开前达成我的目标。
所以，我应该学习成熟了。

p/s:如果你知道我所表达的真言，希望你与我一同努力。谢谢。

胃痛

2009-07-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

忘了对“大姐”的承若，
觉得有点对不起她。
明知道她对我的担心，
我却不会想。

嘉儿大姐，
我答应过你。
每天要准时用餐，
不能再让自己胃痛。

才忘了吃一餐午饭，
我的胃就开始不听话了。
原以为是小事，
头晕却开始来了。

去吃晚饭时，
下了order肚子就很疼。
我几乎就快没有力气了。
我马上撑住走去买面包吃。

幸亏我吃了那面包，
不然我就倒在地上了。
它补充了我10%的力量，
让我还有机会吃完我的晚餐。

我进入了半昏迷的状态。
发信息也会发错，
只忙着跟人家讲sorry。
自己真的很没用。

没痛就好，
再痛的话就吃药。
真的好痛苦，
我不要了啦！

嘉儿大姐，
我以后会记得吃饭了啦！

Waiting for you

2009-07-20T11:38:00.003+08:00

Long period ago...
I was waiting "somebody".
I' m waiting for you...
I' m waiting for you...
I' m waiting for you to enter my life.
Then, I sure EAT you!!!
Waiting you, damn Streamyx!!!

Undecided

2009-06-22T14:47:00.004+08:00

Blood: The Last Vampire
"Nak Blood, 4 orang..."
"Cik, movie ni 18 baru boleh tengok lah..."
"Huh? Saya tahu la..."
"Tapi you sudah 18 ke?"
"Ya lah... Saya sudah 18 laaaa...."
"Nanti sana akan check IC tau?"
"Check ma check la...."
"Tengok IC awak?"
It was going to start.
She still need me to show my IC?
Ok, fine. Can you see the number 90xxxx?
I face this kind of problem everytime...
When I want to buy above 18 de movies' tickets.
Waste my time you know?
But I still enjoy the Blood...
I admired that Korean girl.
Such a brave and powerful girl.
Quite chun when she was fighting...

I never piss off on you that day.
Althought you talked loudly to me.
Because I felt regreted at that time.
I shouldn't say that to u...
On the special day for you...
Because that day was Father's Day.

I found that I was lost my way.
I don't know what can I do.
I 'm going to stop...
But would you agree?
I really don't want to hurt you anymore.
I want to try myself...
To get what I want.
I promise, when I start to work...
I will pay back what you paid on me before.

Sorry, dad.

Update recently

2009-06-16T08:35:00.002+08:00

I had long time did not update already.
Yea, I know. Sorry for everything.
Since I opened the blog, I found a lot of changes!
Well... Its ok for me. I m not changing.

I went to Genting last Friday.
With my hometown friends in one car.
Enjoy ourselves, definitely...

About the gathering, sorry.
Sorry to QE, dear.
I really had my personal problems.
I really can't attend at that time.
Still got next time?

Start to study well now.
If not, I will regret I think.
Spent a lot on TARC...
NO, is in this one and half year.
I would like to pay back.

Have to leave now...

p/s: He was died. And I can't save him. Sorry...

Bukit Tinggi Trip

2009-05-11T13:15:00.003+08:00

I thought my family would come to visit me yesterday.
Well... They didn't. My dad had to busy at Kampar.
Yen Yen was coming, with her cute pinky bag...
After that was Siew Lee, with her sleepy face...
Come on, Siew Lee... 很委屈你咩？拜托...
I drove Leong went to hostel to find Tharma.
When I back to my house, they started to study.
Yen online here after she finished her Pure Maths.
While, the sleepy Lee went to my room...
What she did? She slept in my room! OMG!
I can't imaging that how sleepy she was. Haha...
Yen had to back early because of Mother's day.
And we entered the room to kacau Lee to wake up.
Hahahaha... Her face really like a sleepy pig!!!

Me, Leong, Lee and Tharma went to Jusco.
We had our lunch at Madam Lim.
My coke was finished before my food was delivered.
Because the weather was really really damn hot...
Furthermore, somebody curi my coke!!!
I was not stupid, ok? I curi back also! Haha...

We planned to go out for relaxing after our lunch.
Smimming? Waterfall? Ulu Yam? Or Genting?
Finally, Bukit Tinggi!!! I never go there before.
"Ooi... Really ah?" "Sure or not?" "Now?"
"Ya la... I m serious!" Leong looked like very serious.
Then we bought some food and drinks to go there.
We went to Lee's house first to change her clothes.
Siew Lee, you explain so much to your dad and grandma.
Haha... Well, I knew that they would worry about you.
The weather was comfortable when we went up the hill.
If the weather of TBR also like this, how good...
The view at there was very beautiful. Relaxing...
Lee was so bust to cam here and cam there.
Siew Lee, you really liked a little girl... you know?
Japanese village? French city ah? I don't know their name.
But I really like them. I loved the buildings so much.
We had cam a lot of pictures. Leong was so perasan!
After few hours, 3 of us were tired and had a seat at there.
But the little girl can still walk here and walk there.
She can still cam here and cam there, include the flowers!
"We really old already. You see, we are so tired now.
And that girl still walk around to take pictures"
I told Leong and Tharma. They just smiling...
We enjoyed ourselves, althought exam was coming.
We went back after we had our dinner at SSL Wansa Maju.

Tharma was tired. He looked like a fish without water.
Haiya... All of us also tired la...
A good day... Wednesday start to exam.
See you...

Good Luck, Everyone!

2009-05-08T12:14:00.003+08:00

ANGRY!!!

Angry with...???

STOP IT, Mr LAME...
I really cannot tahan with you already, man!
Don't let all of us feel angry with you, ok?

Give me a break, man.

Yesterday.
First time to try McFlurry...
EXTREMELY DELICIOUS!!!
I love it! Hehe...
Thanks for Yen Yen to let me try ya!
Next time I belanja you back...

Exam is coming...
MATHS, BIO, CHEMISTRY...

Maths = Pure math + Applied math
My pure math ok la...
Normal lo...
But Applied math, DIE...
At least can get B ma?

Biology = can pass or not woh?
About plants' lives la...
I m not a plant, ok?
What heart attack la...
What the hell DNA la...
What scary diseases la...
What immunity la...
I haven't understand yet la!!!

Chemistry = Haih...
I hate calculation so much!
I only know that...
This one mix with that one...
That one mix with another one...
Finally, mixture = BOOM!!!
My head boom...
My brain boom!!!

Everything is BOOM!!!
Oh... I almost forget that!
Loh asked me to do something la...

Well... Once again.
Good luck for every candidate.
Gambateh ya...
Headache already.
Good luck for myself also...

No solutions

2009-04-23T11:17:00.003+08:00

If you don't understand about me,
no points for you to discuss about me!

Thanks for lending me your ears.
Thank you! Thanks a lot...

Because I never tell anyone about that.
It was stayed in my heart for 8 months already.

Ya, I told somebody before.
Not you, but it was my dear puppy.

I could see from his eyes.
Even he was understood me since...

He would look at me when I sad.
He would listen quietly what I said.
He would 'consult' me when I cried.
He would be here when I need him.

Feel better now.
After I voiced out my feeling yesterday.

But there was no any solution.
Everyone is avoiding...

Not yet settle...
Not yet finish...

Problems are present at anywhere.
So... Conclusion = No solutions!

Dad, I'm grow...

2009-04-13T15:45:00.003+08:00

11th April 2009 - Happy Birthday to GUAT LIAN!
She is 19 now. And I have to wait for 8 months to get 19.
12th April 2009 - Happy Birthday to my DAD!!
He is 56 years old already. He already got his white hair.

Yesterday was Sunday. Yea... My dad's birthday.
On Saturday, I asked him.
"Ba, you got work tomorrow?"
"Yes, but I think I will back early.
What time you back to KL tomorrow?"
"Errmm... I think about 3-4pm gua..."
"3-4pm ah? I think I already come back at that time.
Still can see you before you go!"
He still have the mood to make a joke?
But I know he miss me a lot. Hehe...
"Bring your brother go for a hair cut tomorrow ya!"
"Ok ok..." I promised my dad.

I woke up early on Sunday.
But my dad went out for working already.
I sent my brother to have the breakfast,
and also to the tuition centre.
"11am, er jie. ( 2nd sis )" my brother reminded me.
"Ok, 11am we go for hair cut." I replied him.

We wanted to have the hair cut at Wong's saloon.
But the gate was locked. Haih... Never mind.
Then I drove him went to another saloon.
After having his hair cut, a handsome guy was born. :-p
When we back to Wong's saloon, the gate was opened.
Argh... Then I had a hair cut at there finally.
After that, we went to buy a cake for my dad.
I met my cousin who was older than me for 25 years.
He was same age with my mum, ok?
"What are you doing at here?" he asked.
"I want to buy a fruit cake for my dad,
today is his birthday. But here got no the cake."
"You try to find the fruit cake in another shop.
I think Sweety got this kind of cake."
Yea, I bought the beautiful fruit cake finally,
with the words "Happy Birthday, Dad."
And we were waiting for my dad at home after that.

I waited for him until I slept on the sofa.
And I got a call from Leong about 3pm.
He asked me to back to KL early,
because we had to shift into new house.
"But my dad haven't back yet."
"Call him la.....!"
"Ok, I call him now."
I started to get my dad's phone number.
"Ba, when you come back?"
"I think I won't back so early today."
"Ba, but I have to go back to KL already."
"Huh? So early?"
"Ya, because I got things to do.
And I bought a fruit cake for your birthday.
Sister and brother will celebrate with you tonight."
"Why you waste yout money to but the cake?"
"Aiya... Only once a year ma... Its ok la...
I have to go back already."
"Be careful when you driving, ok?It is going to rain."
"Ya, I know. Ok la..."
"Drive slowly ah... Ok la..."

I was packaging my things after that.
I saw my eyedrops suddenly.
But I don't care at that time.
I had to go back early because of somebody's order.
Before I leave my home, I asked my brother
to come back early to celebrate with my dad.

At the night, I called my dad again.
"Ba, have you try the cake?"
"Yes, I ate the cake already. Have you arrive?"
"Ya, today was rainning heavily."
"That's why you must drive carefully."
"Yes, I know. Ok la... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BA..."
"Ok ok... Be careful ya..."

Actually I know my dad tried to work faster today.
He wanted to meet me before I went back to KL.
Maybe he can celebrate his birthday without the cake.
But I know he wanted to celebrate with his children.
My mum was not at home already.
But now I didn't celebrate with my dad.
I know that my dad will be disappointed.
I felt regreted now,
because we will go out to eat together on previous years.
I only hoped that my sister and my brother
could celebrate with him happily.
I hoped they will not make my dad angry anymore.

I cried at night yesterday. I felt sorry to him.
I told Leong that 1st time I miss my dad so much.
I miss him a lot...
Sorry, dad because I can't celebrate your birthday with you.
I promise, I will bring you go out to eat next year.
Take care, dad. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you again.
I miss you... And love you, dad.

Waste your time de blog?

2009-04-08T21:45:00.003+08:00

I became less blogging at here since...?
Maybe I have no time...
Maybe I need some time...
Maybe I have to concentrate in my study...
I have a few possible reasons.
But the most is...
Somebody don't like me to blog.
He thought blogging is only waste my time.
Especially for me who is not good in study.
I will get scold if I continue blogging.
But do you know?
I only can voice out my feeling at here.
And you're trying to stop me...
If there is no more blogging,
I have to get another way to express my feeling.
And you seldom listen to me.
Yes, I seldom share my feeling with you.
Even about that incident that somebody did...
Selfish? I don't know...
But you really don't like to listen to me.
And you only want me keep following you.
Stress and give up...

Mid course is coming

2009-03-27T21:12:00.002+08:00

For Mid Course candidates,

GAMBATEH for you all...

Don't think about other things.

Concentrate to your study...

Please work hard for yourself.

Best wishes for all of you...

Try your best in the exam.

GAMBATEH!

Chakyou chakyou!!!

No government

2009-03-20T17:42:00.003+08:00

This is the English's version for my previous post, demanded by little Seow Yen. Sorry ya...
I did not have enough time to rest during the holidays, because of the insurance of the car and renewal of my driving licence. Even I had no time to meet my hometown friends also. That day, we were called to report again for the accident at police station becauce the Malay woman who knocked my car did not go to report the case. Well... Fine. Because of this, I was scolded by my dad. He thought that me was a irresponsible person who never care of this case and settle it quickly. "So ma fan... Waste my time only. I pay for ur father la..."Somebody who included in this accident said. Hey uncle, this was not the money problem. This was the responsibility...Ok? I knew the polices in Malaysia are useless, all are the fools. We were scolded by the police when we entered his office. Police can scold people like this? Without any reason... I m a Malaysian who has the freedom to talk, right? Luckily I was not so stupid. I recorded the evidence (He scolded us for about 5 to 6 minutes) in my phone. He never think that I will do that. I m not a kampong girl, ok? I as him, why the woman didn't report the case. He answered "how I know" angrily. "Then you as a traffic police cannot find out the woman?" I asked. Because we got the woman's car number already what. "YOU PERGI CARI SENDIRI LA...!" He shouted at me. At that moment, I was very very very angry until my blood almost pumped out. I endured... Luckily the word of "BABI" did not shouted out from my mouth at that time. The fat police said that we were decided to repair the car by ourselves and gave up to claim the woman's insurance. What the hell? FXXX his mother ah! STUPID! USELESS! I was be driven beyond for bearance. What for I reported the case if I don't want claim the insurance? I m ready to complain this big, fat, useless pig at the ibu pejabat balai polis KL. Reason? Because he was impolite to us, irresponsible, discriminated against races. My dad was agreed with me. He will ask for his friend's help, who know a Chinese what high-ranking police officer worked at KL police station. Finally, the woman reported the case. She said she never report because we decided to repair the car by ourselves. My fire was at the highest limit already. What the FXXX?! I thought she was taught by the police to say like this de. Now, I hate Malays, I hate the Malaysia's polices the most!
For my hometown friends: Do you know Guat Lian was sick? She had an operation 3 days ago, you know? I went to visit her that day. She lost a lot of weight. She got stomache before. She was admitted into many government or local hospital. The doctors inside only pressed her stomach and gave her what oral rehydration method but never scan also. Scanning was the basic method to check the problem of the stomach. They never check out the illness then let her go. However, her stomach was very pain until she cannot affrord it. She was admitted into a private hospital at KL. She reached there about 2 something (pm) and had a check. The doctor there only pressed her stomach once, then he knew her cecum/ceacum was splitted, started to break already. She will in crisis without operation. About 4pm, the operation was started. She stayed in the hospital for a night, RM4000++ was gone. It was quite expensive, but at least she still alive. Lian told me, maybe she only got the appendicitis and her cecum was splitted by the doctors in local hospital because of their pressing. I was thinking about the news of what irresponsible local hospital cause the death of people because of their late rescue in the newspaper, I felt sad to the victims. Lian was ok now, she had to rest a lot. Now her stomach got a 4 inches scar with gauze after the operation. Pity her... She was already thin, but now lost a lot of weight somemore. You all go to visit her if you free, ok?
The government system was very very terrible. Protect the residents? NEVER! I can't find a reason to trust the government anymore. I lost my confidence to Malaysia's gorvernment. And... I was back. Yes, yesterday. This is the end of my translation. Sorry for the inconvenient...

我不喜欢政府(No Government)

2009-03-19T15:50:00.003+08:00

不懂你为什么很爱跟我吵。每次回到家，你就不能改下你的语气吗？我已经够烦了，你知道吗？
这次的假期，我都没有好好休息到。都在忙着处理车子的事情，还有换新的驾车执照。就连要找朋友聚一聚的时间都被吃掉了。那天，我们被吩咐回到警察局再次报案。原因是对方还没有去报案。不要紧...就因为这样，我被骂了。爸骂我做任何事情都不尽快处理；他又说我麻烦，浪费他的时间，他赔钱就好。先生，不是有钱就大完的。这种事情是讲负责任，你明白吗？好景不长在，我也知道马来西亚的警察都是废物，浪费资源的无能蠢材。一进到他的办公室就给他骂得好像是我们的错一样。警察可以随口骂人的吗？他那是什么态度啊？我是个有权力讲话的公民。幸亏我不笨，至少我把他骂人的证据一一都录进我的电话里了。他万万也想不到，我会这样做吧？他以为我是村姑啊？以为我什么都不懂？他真的是太过分了。我问他，为什么对方不要报警？他说一句：“我哪里知道？！”他一路跟我们的谈话里的语气都很凶。当我问他：“你们交通部不能找到对方吗？”毕竟有了对方的车牌号码啊！“你自己去找啦！”就因为这一句，我真的气到快爆血管了。忍...我忍！总算忍到BABI没有从我口中喊出来。他还说当初我们决定不要claim对方的保险。他妈的！放屁！我实在忍无可忍了。他白痴啊？不要claim的话，那我报警来干嘛？得空没事做啊？我们决定要到警察局总部去投诉这只浪费国家的白米的肥猪。投诉他没有礼貌，不负责任，还有种族歧视。我要告死他！爸还叫我别放过这种人。他也打算叫他朋友认识的一位好像在警察局总部上班的高级警察朋友帮忙跟那只猪谈谈。最后，对方报案了。她说之前我们说自己修理自己的，所以她才没有报案的。我的火已经升到最高点了！我什么时候这样说过？一定是那只猪教她这样说的。现在，我恨死马来人，更恨死马来西亚的警察。
给我的中学朋友：你们知道月莲病了吗？她刚刚动了手术，你们知道吗？那天，我去看了她。她真的瘦了很多。起初，她肚子痛得很厉害，已经转了很多政府医院。那里的医生都只是按按她的肚子，吊水，却没帮她scan。最基本的都没有做到，还没检查到病因就让人出院。她以为没事了。结果，有一天她痛得实在受不了。她被送去吉隆坡的私人医院。她说，她两点多在私人医院里给医生检查。医生才按一下她的肚子，就说她的盲肠已经裂了，开始破了。如果再迟两天，就可能会有生命危险。就这样，四点多就马上开刀动手术。她在那里住了一晚，花了四千多零吉。虽然是贵了点，但效率高，至少保得住性命！哪像那种没用的医院，连scan都不愿意，就只会拖。莲还说，搞不好本来只是盲肠炎，但那盲肠有可能是给政府医院按破的。现在想起报章上的什么政府医院不负责任，迟就医而导致死亡的案子，真的为那些受害者打抱不平。莲现在好点了，需要好好地休息。现在她肚子有个动手术后留下的四寸疤痕，还包着纱布的。她真可怜，人已经很瘦了，现在又瘦了几公斤。你们有空就去看看她，问候她吧！
突然觉得政府的系统很差，还说会保护人民。他们讲就厉害啦！这样才多人受骗嘛！现在我完全找不到一个可以让我相信政府的理由。对了，我回来吉隆坡了。是的，今天。因为爸的一句话，所以现在也该拿书出来了．．．

Holidays Week

2009-03-13T12:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAYS FOR ALL OF YOU!

I WILL MISS YOU ALL, FRIENDS!

SEE YOU ALL AFTER ONE WEEK...

BUT AT THAT TIME,

MID COURSE IS COMING!

SO, STUDY HARD ON HOLIDAYS!

HURRAY!!! HAHA...

(sot jor...mad person!)

谁对谁好？

2009-03-11T15:26:00.003+08:00

I went to watch "Love Matters" last Saturday.
A qualitied Singapore's love and comedy movie...
I liked most of the phrases in the movie. Really...
Especially... 岁月长了,你对她的爱还剩多少?
Something liked that la! I almost forget already.
Yea, how many love are there after many years?
I think no one can answer this complicated question.
My answer... I don't know. I really don't know.
But I will try to maintain all of my love on you.
Most of the ppl are finding for the freshness of love.
Because they liked the new things, right? Haha...
To maintain the relationship between couple,
they should give their lover something difference.
How? That was a challenge for every couple. Hehe...
I never said that our relationship is maintained.
But I will try to do it. I will try my best. 真的...

Finally the pre-mid course Bio test finish already.
I studied for the test, Quite strange, right? Haha...
I spent about 2 days to understand my DNA.
But I still cannot memorise what DNA what RNA...
Thanks for him to force me to study study study.
And restricted me did not online or play games...
But... When I saw the paper, first response: WTH!
I never see this what what things before leh! Die...
Well... Forget about it la! Extra test only ma... :-p
But I have to prepare for my mid course le la!
The Bio practical was interesting today. Haha...
Of course, I never see human blood cell before what!
I could see the human white blood cell! I could...
After the class, we went for playing volley ball.
I only know about the Pikachu's volley ball game.
Such a big gang... They were so so so active loh!
There were a lot of funny things happenned. Haha...
I sat at beside... Their motions were very funny.
Cally, your face ok? Sure ok ah? An active girl...
SL, you really really looked like a Standard 6 girl
when I saw you from the top loh! Hahahahahaha...
I saw some guys quite "yeng" when they hit the ball.
But I went back with him when it was start rainning.

Because of the test, I did not online for few days already.
Damn "guai" loh! Haha... Next week is holiday week!
I don't know whether the car ok already or not.
If ok already, then I can go yam cha with them loh!
They are waiting for me to back hometown. Hehe...
Then I m waiting for my holidays loh! Hurray...
For the students who will get their result tomorrow...
Is it tomorrow? Tomorrow, right? I don't know la...
I got long time didn't back to the school already ma...
Ok... I hope that they can get colourful result loh!
Means GOOD GOOD GOOD result la... :)

感情里没有谁对谁好，只有你觉得值得就好。

Bye, Danny...

2009-03-02T14:23:00.003+08:00

You was come from Ipoh.
We knew about each other
start from January 2008.
You was not the leader in our camp.
But you was famous among us.
Our team were same, remember?
Remember the word of "TUAH"?
We hope that we could get the TUAH
for everything beside us, right?
You was a kind and friendly person.
Everyone was closed with you.
That's why you had lot of friends.
Your Chinese hand-writing was nice.
Your hand-writing won mine, you know?
I still remember that the naughty guy
asked you to help him wrote his biodata
in our books with your hand-writing everytime.
You liked to talk with everyone.
You had a lot of topics that can share with us.
You had a good talent before.
You was the best male Chinese singer in our camp.
Yea, you was very good in singing.
You activated all the Chinese friends
to sing together in our last night show.
You was success to do it, remember?
There was a lot a lot of sweet memories
between you and us in Kem Segari.
You never give up our friendship.
Even we had finished our National Service,
you still contact with the others.
You organised a trip for our NS members.
Actually that was a gathering for us.
However, I was absent at that time.
Because I was too far from Ipoh.
But I never forget one of you all...
I never forget your sinceritied sms.

25 February 2009, you left us suddenly.
You gone without telling anyone.
I got the information from your sister.
The other friends said, a lorry hijacked your life
when you driving back from school.
My eyetears were dropped when I heard it.
You was only 18 years old, same with us.
Have you enough playing? Enough already?
You never try the working experience also.
Have you really enough enjoying your life?
I can sure that your answer is NO!
How cruel was it, you know?
Because of the scary accident,
your life has been grabbed forever.
We lost a good friend, a talented singer.
We were down and sad because of you.

Danny, you was gone now.
But you are our best friend forever.
We will not forget you, Danny.
We will not forget your effort
in maintaining our friendship before.
Your smile and face will bear in our mind.
Forever, forever and forever...

Appreciate everyone start from now.
If not, then will be too late...

Friendship can b 4ever

2009-02-23T15:48:00.004+08:00

Can I postpone the tags, CL & SL?
Bcoz I m really really lazy now...
Haha... Well well well, do it now lol...

Wat 15 things tat u guys talking bout?
Curious bout tag now...
Well... I'll start now. Simply... Ok?

1. I m a girl, not a boy. ( Like tis? )
2. Errmm... I like sweet food,
but not include chocolates.
3. I don't like starcraft sometimes.
4. I seldom shopping in my life.
5. I hate gazat very very much!
6. I will feel sleepy when talking bout "BIO".
7. I prefer cold compared to warm.
8. I will bcum emo when I m in period.
9. I like my horoscope very much.
10. I like to watch funny movie to make me laugh.
11. I m in cold war wit my mum now.
12. I hate the police in tis country.
13. I hate falsity or pretense in my life.
14. I already gt long time no touching my bicycle.
15. I like watermelon juice so much. Haha...

Finally finish already.Hehe...
Sorry, guys. I dun know how to do the tags.
So, simply do it only. Sorry ya...

Well... I quite emo today. Haih...
Worry bout a lot a lot of things...
I gt a badly marks for my bio test.
Really really really worst in my test 4.
Too many terms to memorise...
How u guys can memorise them perfectly?

Are u dun like a person now without reason?
Example: I dun like u bcoz of ur face.
I dun like her bcoz she s very lan c...
I dun like him bcoz I really dun like him...
PLEASE STOP IT NOW... Ok?
U r hurting them, did u notice?
Bcoz of their face...
They will get ur "beh song".
Izzit their face are their faults?
If u found ur frens very lan c,
who always boast in front of u...
Would u angry or "beh song" wit them?
Will u know tat they r juz kidding at tat time?
Will u know tat their meaning r not boasting at u?
I can sure tat some ppl only like to boast,
but not to challenge u... Understand?
But u all condemn "executions" for them.
U all ostracize him without telling them...
Tat s unfair for them, u know?
U already make a scar inside their heart.
Do u think bout their feeling?
Down? Sad? Disappointed? Or angry?
Bcoz they gt a fren like u?
Ya, I will disappoint bcoz of u if tat person is me!

If u dun like them bcoz u really dun like them,
u r the mad! Bcoz u gt no any reason to hate them.
If u still b fren wit them although u "beh song" them,
means u r hurting them now "indirectly"...
u r the most mendacious ppl in tis world!

Think bout tat, my dear frens.
Respect to each other, can?
PLEASE dun hurt ur frens anymore.
Dun be a ostensible fren in ur life.
If not, u will regret one day bcoz of ur inveraciuos.

FRIENDSHIP CAN BE FOREVER IF U WANT...

HURRY = REGRET (sometimes)

2009-02-16T14:53:00.004+08:00

14 February, Valentine's day for every couple.
Since we back to our hometown on Friday,
so we did not follow the trip to Sunway with them.

I sent him back to his house first on that day.
I can see that his mother quite happy to see him.
Her smile was telling us that she miss her son so much.
He had to help his family to work after we back.
I asked him to let me follow to know how he worked.
He used a silver bicycle to take me went to the port,
a small port without any big ships, only the seafood.
Quite romantic at that time, although the weather is damn hot.
Then, I helped to distinguish the sotong and small fish.
We talked a lot when we peeled the prawns at his house.
I was his audience... He told me his thought and his dream.
All are secrets between us. Haha...

On Saturday, I didn't know what he had planned.
I was just waiting for his call. He was quite busy, I thought.
Errmmm... We only went for a simple dinner without wine.
But we got champagne that he brought from his house.
I accepted 3 gifts from him. And I liked them so much.
I still remember, I had my Valentine's day in NS last year.
And I was received his gift When I came out from the camp.
Thank you, dear. I really had a nice Valentine's day this year.

This morning, we wanted back to TAR college by car.
Unfortunetally, we had an accident near Ijok there...
We wanted to dodge a car in front of us which had an emergency brake,
because of the irresponsible motorcycle that turned right suddenly.
We felt that we would knocked down the car in front of us,
then we turned the stering to right to dodge the red car.
WTF!!! The motorcycle turned right slowly in front of us.
Then we shocked suddenly and had an emergency brake.
Then we heard "BANG" and we knew a car knocked us.
"Die liao..." we said. We looked to each other for 3 seconds.
I was so calm at that time. Why? I really don't know...
Maybe this was my first time and I didn't know what feeling was that.
The bumper that behing my car was fall down a bit.
The metal become dented and the light had PECAH!
Walau... The Malay woman cannot get her husband.
We were arguing for whose fault. We were in hurry...
Somebody was came and introduce himself after a while.
I don't know who was him and he gave me his name card.
He said that he was responsible in this kind of case,
like insurance, claiming of money, repairing the car.
His friends were came after him. Got many people at that time.
The incharged, an Indian asked us to report first,
then only can get the claiming of money from the woman.
I was so scare to let my father know about it. But how?
I had to ask him about the insurance. That's why I called him.
After he explain to me about the car's insurance,
we decided to make report at Batang Berjuntai Police Station.
If not, we had to pay for the repairing of the car by ourselves.
We waited for the traffic police from KS so long in the police station.
We were so hungry because we didn't eat anything this morning.
He went to buy some breads to save our stomach nearby.
Finally, the fat traffic police was coming. I hate him so much!
WTF!!! His sound looked like was our fault. We were victims!
Now I know that what was the meaning of POLIS XXXXXX.
In my idea, they were only know that Malay is the correct one.
For them, the other races in this country are not residents?

Well... We spent a few hours in the police station.
We still not sure that we would get the "SAMAN" or not.
Because of this, I had a bad mood today. Maybe tomorrow...
"This is the biggest gift that I received on Valentine's day this year,"
I told him in the car. He only used his smile to reply me. Haha...
We have to back again tomorrow for repairng and claiming.
So maybe I will be quite busy with the car in this 2 weeks.

Of course I hope no more accident next time and forever...
If not, I think my dad will not let me drive anymore.
The main one is I don't want to see any injury anymore.
So dear, don't forget what u promised me this morning.
FOR MY DEAREST FAMILY AND LOVELY FRIENDS,
Drive CAREFULLY everytime and never so close to other cars.
Because I really don't want any matter happen on you all...

Leave me, gazat!

2009-02-02T02:18:00.004+08:00

Hello... I'm back!
Waiting for me? Haha...
Miss me? Hehe...
I know u will do it, SL.

Well... Everything were quite ok.
Such a boring CNY in this year...
My dad had to see doctor at KPJ.
He should take care of his diet now.
My relationship with my mum quite bad.
She was my opponent, I thought.
Nobody will know my situation...

We went for movie at Jusco, Kepong.
Watching Red Cliff II yesterday...
Such a "huge" movie...
I mean the action, the characters...
There were many people in the cinema.
Crowded dou we had to sit in the 1st row.

When I back to my room...
My roommate was came back already.
She got exam on Tuesday.
She study at outside for her exam.
Suddenly I saw a gazat sticked on Leong's door.
At the moment, I know that gazat can FLY!!!
WTF!!! Damn gazat!!! I hate gazat...
I closed my door immediately.
BUT... It came into my room!!! Quite big...
I shouted to ask for help... HELP!!!
Leong did not want to help me... Damn him!
Winson came out and settle the gazat...
Luckily got him... That was what we called...
Gentleman, agree? I'll remember you, Leong!
I heard that here got many gazat recently...
I really will get HEART ATTACK
When I saw it FLY to here and FLY to there!

We got a plan to watch midnight movie.
The worker said "habis" when I asked for tickets.
Then we went for tea at Kepong...
The drink that I ordered quite sour!
Well... We talked a lot of our house.
About the people inside the house...
About the gazat... That can make me CRAZY!!!
Winson said that he got biten by gazat recently!
What a scary incident, for me...

Gazat, can u please go away?
I really cannot tahan with u already.
You made me became maid...
Please leave me, please...

Anybody can help me to settle the gazat?
Or you guys got any method to kill them?
You can share your opinion with me.
Because I really need your HELP!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!

2009-01-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year for everyone!!!
I will back to my hometown tomorrow.
I hope I can get a lot a lot of angpau...
And eat a lot a lot of snack...
I wish that some problem in my home,
can be settled quickly.
Have a nice holidays, guys!
See you!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

国家动物园

2009-01-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

活了十八年，第一次去国家动物园。
门票当然有点贵啦！都说明是国家咯！
高高的长颈鹿，大大只的大象，
全部看起来都很假耶！只有我不假...
走到湖边，我们欣赏着脚长长的鸟。
它们那白白的羽毛在阳光下闪闪发亮，
很漂亮哦！我们不禁拍照起来。
我：“为什么它们不要过来一点给我们拍？
这里没那么晒嘛！做么它们酱喜欢晒太阳？”
莲：“是咯！可是它们怎么晒都不会黑耶！”
莲，你知道吗？就因为你的这一句话，
全场冷到...好像在北极看北极熊耶！
佩服你咯！总算学到我冷笑话的一点点招数。
我在那里看到青蓝色的鸵鸟蛋哦！好特别...
那天我内疚的是，我对不起一只袋鼠。
我只是想要拍下它蹦蹦跳跳的一面罢了，
可是不小心拍到它的男性生殖器官咯！
我不是故意的。谁叫它不要穿裤子嘛？
春光乍泄咯！袋鼠先生，以后穿回裤子好吗？
还有，西游记的牛魔王被关在动物园里了，
还有猪八戒也关起来了，你们快点去看吧！
还有一只很大很大的乌龟哦！应该很老了吧？
你们知道吗？小时候的鳄鱼真的好可爱，
大了就很丑了。鳄鱼，活该！谁叫你会咬人？
进到蜜蜂屋，真的是气死我了。哈哈...
她向我们介绍蜂蜜的产品。可是她也太直了吧！
她向莲推荐什么消除豆豆的蜂蜜。
我只是看看罢了。她突然望着对我说：
“也有帮助减肥的。”WTF！我有说要减肥吗？
我很肥吗？我现在很肥吗？打死都不买！
之后我们去看表演，找回愉快的心情。
鹦鹉升国旗，体操表演，飞到别人手中拿钱，
都不比海狮的精彩。小只的真的很可爱哦！
大的玩球就很厉害。它们真的很听话的。
我好喜欢它们拍手呢！若我有一只就好了。
它们的皮肤看起来滑滑的，好想摸一摸...
其实，真的还有很多动物不方便一一说明出来。
没去过国家动物园的朋友，考虑一下吧！哈哈...
今天是量第一天教补习，要顺顺利利哦！
懒惰写了，今天也有点不舒服。泄肚子啊！
也应该读书了。等量回来再去吃东东！嘻嘻...

My God

2009-01-12T18:43:00.003+08:00

I only went for the GP class today.
Not ponteng... Ok, man?!
The other class already cancelled ma...
All the lecturer got meeting what...
About the course fee...
Haih... I have to go to Public Bank again.
Yea, RM2800++ is quite a big amount what...
After paying his bill in the bursary,
we 'hang' over there. Haha...
They decided to swim at GK,
the swimming pool under Ting's condo.
I thonght that was Leong' idea.
Bcoz he got long time no swimming already.
I could see that he loved swimming so so so much.
Somemore, no need to pay what...
Bcoz Ting stayed at there ma...
Got a bit kedekut hor? Haha...
Well... We drove to there with my poor car.
( At least the engine still can be operated, ok? )
Leong went down to swim first,
then followed by Tharma.
We wait for Ting to come down so long.
Bcoz of Leong's excitement,
he splashed the water liked in the sea.
And he made us wet wet wet.
Well, he did not know that...
A guard was starring on him.
Maybe he did not see the rules first.
Then he 'scolded' by the guard gua...
We didn't hear what they talked.
I thought he was 'beh song' already.
Luckily, the 3 guys enjoyed swimming finally.
They wanted to bathed after swimming.
Then we had a sit at Ting's condo.
OH MY GOD!!! MY GODNESS!!!
I never see any house also,
but I was entered a 'store room'.
Do u know what I saw at there?
A lot of newspapers, wires and cabels,
unfolded clothes, books and papers,
and boxes on the floor. Walao...
The floor so so so DIRTY somemore.
The kitchen... How to cook at there?
I really don't know why he still can tahan.
I entered his room when he was bathing.
Most the clothes were put on the mattress.
Ok, let us imaging that...
He sleep on the clothes that acted as mattress?
OH MY GOD!!! I can't imaging that.
Furthermore, the house quite dark.
I was busy fighting with mosquitoes there.
Lee was busy taking photos of the terrible condition.
Conclusion is, this house can enter the 'world record'.
That why I said a successful man need a woman behind of him.
That was enough. Haha... Luckily, I m a girl.
You should be appreciate, ok? Haha...
We ate at a restaurant. Quite beautiful...
But the food there... Still cannot get full marks lo...
Leong and Ting busy playing chess at there.
I almost fall a sleep after having my lunch.
We were back after that. I drove at that time.
Hey man... Got licence already, ok?
I have to study Bio now.
Maybe tomorrow got quiz lo...
Good luck for me...

爽

2009-01-09T21:21:00.004+08:00

今天蛮爽的，只上了三节课...
虽然昨天敲到头今天还有点晕晕的，
但我都尽量专注每一堂课。
我知道恐怖的考试就离我不远了。
我们很快地就做好了试验，
就到食堂里去坐坐聊聊。
那两个就跑到上别人的课，
够不讲义气咯！哈哈...
不过她们真的很勤劳咯！
我没想到从h班转来我们班的H仔...
他是跟我同姓的，
只是他的丘是没有耳朵的。
我的是邱，我的有哦！
他也是客家人，
不懂他会不会讲客家话呢？
现在很少年轻人会讲客家话了。
上完了Bio class，
又回到食堂去吃吃喝喝咯！
不懂做么C小姐今天有点静，
我便尽量找话题跟她聊聊。
吃饱之后有两个小时给我闹闹。
今天我们都讲了很多话题。
不懂为什么，谈到邦格岛的位置。
那个聪明人竟然说是在马来西亚地图的东边。
好心...还要一直argue哦！
我逼不得已要拿出纸和笔画一张地图向他解释。
心服口服了吧？哈哈...
之后来了两个d班的男生，
应该是想彼此认识一下吧！
不懂他的华语名，是M就对了啦！
又是一个变态恐怖加威力强劲的读书仔聪明人。
算了，反正我不恐怖变态就好。
今天放学前有个As briefing...
要我们选科了。天啊！
又是犹豫不决心情很烦的时候了。
还有还有，又是要钱的时候了。
考一科就要百七块，
是不是应该考虑去打抢银行呢？
他想要教补习，我也很支持他。
希望他不会太累太辛苦就好咯！
他最近很爱唱福建歌，
今天下午他心血来潮教我唱歌。
哇劳！玻璃没破就已经很不错咯！
还要什么拉高高...
唱到晚餐都忘了啦！可怜...
不过有时候爱玩也不错，减压嘛！
幸好明天不用上课，
可以睡迟迟哦！哈哈...
不过今天没什么读到书，
明天要努力一点了啦！
没屁放了，就酱吧！
就希望大家幸福快乐，
尤其是刚刚开始deng deng deng的那两位咯！

New Year Target

2009-01-04T23:41:00.003+08:00

First, happy birthday to myself.
On 31st Dec 2008, I m 18 already...
Not a small kid anymore.
I hope my parent can support what I had did before.
Now is 2009, a new year for me.
I don't know what can I do in this year.
But at least I know my target.
Tomorrow is the first day I go back to college.
I got many feeling before.
Well... I have to start my target right now.
I m not sure that I can get it.
But I will try my best to do it.
I have to busy tomorrow.
So, good night...
Have a nice dream...

你们的自私

2009-01-04T21:51:00.000+08:00

好累，我真的好累，真的快崩溃了。
没有人能够了解我，没人可以体谅我。
每天去朋友家就被骂得狗血淋头，
去找朋友聚聚只有一个小时…
超过时间就有追踪电话来的责骂，豪不顾我的面子。
你们为什么那么自私，变得那么蛮不讲理？
为什么不听听我的心声？
你们知道一个十八岁的女生要的是什么吗？
你们又知不知道我要的又是什么？
为什么你们从来不问我？
一句句难听的话不断侮辱着我，
真的好刺耳…你们知道吗？
你们知道我有多难受吗？
虽然我想当生气你们的每一刻的刁难，
有时真的很想跟你们大吵一顿，跟你们说说道理…
但我都放弃了，因为你们是不会听的。
你们从来不会尊重我们，不曾了解我们，
只知道你们自己永远都是对的，
而我们…根本没资格跟你们谈谈什么道理。
你们都会认为我们说的都是废话。
你们说，这都是为我们好。够了！
这一句伤得我太深了，你们知道吗？
我真的好希望我所做的一切，
都是得到你们的支持，而不是你们给我的打击…
因为你们的种种评语，我掉了几滴泪水？
你们以为我是坚强而任打任丢都不会损坏的机器人吗？
但你们却不知道我小小的心灵已受到极大的伤害。
你们这样夺走我的自由与权利，不觉得过分吗？
我已经十八岁了，你们不要再把我当成小孩好吗？
我真的知道自己在做什么的，请你们相信我好吗？
可以不要再为难我了吗？别再给我压力好不好？
我受够了！一摞摞的压力已经让我很喘很累了。
我真的好希望你们可以支持我，鼓励我…
但是，机会渺茫…我知道这是不可能的。
无论如何，我依然埋怨你们。请你们别在我站在顶楼的阳台上才来后悔…

我会知足的...哈哈！

2008-10-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

那天，和两个朋友在讲堂聊了一会儿。
一个是来自吉隆坡的城市人；
另一个是来自霹雳金宝（一个还为发展的市镇）。
不知是由谁说起，我们就说到父母给的自由。
我觉得咖喱面很可怜...
她给我的感觉是她妈把她管制的很严。
一个十八岁的女生，却没有应有的私人空间。
她说，就算她换了msn的密码，
她妈依然会知道，并开了她的msn，
查看她和每一位朋友得之前对话。
这也太夸张了吧？她的女儿会怎么想？
咖喱面说还不止这些...
不管什么时候，她妈都会突然突击检查，
人家所谓的spot check。
就这样，她的电话和皮包都得让她妈过目。
她说她妈妈要看看有没有男生的信息，
还有男生的照片。我只能...嗨！
还有，七点多算是三经半夜吗？
就算是这时候跟表姐出门，
都要被骂一番。表姐耶！又不是男人！
她说她曾经有争取过小小的私人权利，
但她妈的答案更可爱。
她妈说这样做是想更了解自己的女儿。
了解需要夺走一个孩子的权利吗？
况且，我们都十八岁了。
我知道有些人会说父母这样做都是为我们好，
但需要那么过分，那么残忍吗？
白米说，虽然她妈没有开msn也没有看皮包，
但手机都是逃不了的。
我问她是不是都要一直删除男友的信息，
她说了两个字，是啦！
为什么父母都是酱的呢？
这样不是让他们的孩子更有压力吗？
为何没有想过她们的感受？
看来，我比她们好多了。
虽然每次出夜街会被念念几下，
但至少我爸妈不会对我怎样。
我妈不会查看我的电话，
也许她不会按我电话吧！
况且我也不会酱容易让她得到吧！
我要加一句：哈哈...
她也不会查看我的钱包，
可能她都知道我皮包都是没钱的吧！
再加一句：嘻嘻...
她更加不可能会去看我的msn，
因为我家里都没有电脑，
就算有她也不会开，
因为她更加不懂msn是什么鬼东西啊！
哈哈哈哈...别说我坏蛋哦！
真的，我比一些人幸福多了。
我还能要求什么？我还埋怨什么呢？
我应该知足了啦！不是吗？
其实我早就有了我的私人权啊！
我只希望咖喱面和白米，你们要加油哦！
我祝福你们...

累了，抵抗力还不是很好。
昨晚我发烧了啦！
今天上课还晕晕的...
最近还真忙的，要好好照顾自己了。
天气也够热的，你们也要喝多点水哦！

他对我最好...

2008-10-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

昨天，我哭了。
放学回来，我回到自己的房间...
本来想一个人静静地度过这个下午，
让自己好好冷静。
他在门外敲着门，
暗示我让他进来。
我告诉他，网线我不用了，拿去吧！
他什么也没说，一进来就抱着我。
他知道我的问题，但没有说出来...
在他怀里几分钟，我静静的，脸上没有表情。
我不想...我不想让他知道，
我的心早已经流下泪水。
“我知道你很在乎这件事情，
可是你却装着什么事情都没有发生，
你都装着不知道，对吗？”
他终于开口了。
不知不觉，我发现我的眼泪流了出来。
我哭了，我抱着他哭了！
连朝向他背后的我，在他肩膀上点点头，
向他表示他说的都是正确的。
他擦掉我脸上的泪，说他不在乎这一切，
只希望我不会给别人笑。
我向他解释我犯下的错...
我知道我令他失望了。
我已经一直在努力，但我没想到...
出来的结果是这样的。
我不敢让他知道我真的很累，
但他却知道有一摞摞的压力压在我身上。
他抱着我，陪我坐了接近一个小时...
告诉我了很多很多话。
他一直都在鼓励我，没有放弃我。
他希望我不后悔，并答应陪我一起努力。
因为他不想让其他人对我失望...
我也答应他，我会尽力的。
躺在他怀里，我的泪渐渐地干了。

写到这里，我都鼻酸了。
泪水也会不时掉下来...
不是因为我是爱哭鬼，
而是...我很感动，也很满足。
因为他对我最好...

2008-10-22T10:26:00.000+08:00

I know,
exam is coming.
20 days later,
I will sit in the huge and cold college hall.
I felt scare...
My results were not so good before.
I know it...
Even some of them were failed.
Especially the calculation part...
Of some subject...
I want to pass all the subject!
If can...
I try to study and study now.
Although I will fall a sleep...
When I see a lot of tiny words on the book...
Come on,
Janice@Lee San...
Why you never try your best to achieve what you want?
Why you never try to think that...
Actually reading is quite interesting?
Ya...
I love reading when I small, isn't me?
Where is my interest now?
Exam is coming soon.
Start to study from now!
Even this second...
Pass all the paper!
You can do it, Janice...!!!

2008-10-06T11:30:00.000+08:00

我好累。我真的好累...
一摞摞的事情都发生在我身上。
这都是老天要给我的惩罚吗？
My study...
My love...
Even my family...
都是我注重的事项。
我曾努力去解决一切的问题，
但就是会有一次又一次的挑战。
好累，有时候会觉得真的好累...

我知道你很在乎我，
甚至是非常关心我。
你说若我有什么事情都要跟你说，
但有时候我真的不想让你担心。
因为，我在乎你。
谢谢你对我的好...
就算在我最狼狈的时候，
你还会给我你的拥抱，
让我觉得至少还有你的温暖。
你的关怀，
让我振作起来...

我想问你，
可以在一次拥抱我吗？
我会乖乖的，
不会乱跑乱跳，
只想静静的靠在你怀里．．．

我的决定

2008-10-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

很迷惑！
五个月就这样过去了，
我却不知道...
我的决定是否是正确的。
我不懂自己该不该继续，
往这条路走。
可是，
我已经走了五个月，
还能再回头吗？
我强迫自己要坚强，
别让放弃带我走进失败。
坚强，加油...

SAN ＠ ＳＵＮＳＨＩＮＥＳ