because of yesterday, i remember u. because of her, i reopen sunshines again today. no important message but juz visit my old fren, a fren who accompanied me when i alone and down. thank you, my old fren. u lighten my life up and u make me stronger. but i believe that i will be seldom visit u from now. dun be sad bcz i know u will proud of me. this will prove tat i hav a good life in the future and everything in a great condition. this is great rite? but still, u are my best fren forever. :)

我拿不到第二名

我就是我，可是已经不是以前的我。

我没有很多要求，却换来没用的理由。


因为戏院，我决定以后习惯一个人看过期的DVD...

因为自私，我决定以后习惯一个人享用美食...

因为自己，我决定以后习惯一个人走在街上...

因为心情，我决定以后习惯一个人承受痛苦...


我始终拿不到第二名，永远都不可能发生的事情...

Blocked feeling...

That day, I saw the scene with the characters who I know. The first feeling that I had was sad. Yea, I was really sad with your selfishness. How long the friendship that we had? And now you try to spoil it in front of me. I have nothing to say. You liked to show off… You liked to make people envy with you. However, you try to give me a lot and a lot of reasons to ignore me. I don’t need your explanation. It will make me feel disgusting. It’s ok… That was not a big deal for me. At least, I can smell your true face now. The truth is, you never think that I m the one of your friends. You only care for the others. I felt sad and disappointed with your attitude.

珍惜

连续几天，我的心情糟透了。
不懂是压力，还是自己多心了。
遇到不对的人，难免会有那么多的顾虑。
所以，我知道你在想什么。
你讨厌我，我也不会喜欢你。
因为，这辈子，我不是欠你的。
请你顾好你的脸，别在我面前摆脸色。
拜托，别以为自己有好多优点！
其实，你连街边的野狗都不如！

发泄了一番，心情好多了？
不可能，身边太多小人了。
我避得了这一次，也逃不过下一次。
算了，讲也讲了，该说别的了。

最近，报纸上车祸连连，心酸不已。
大部分的往生者都是年纪轻轻的青年人。
人生只有那十多二十几年，多可惜啊！
什么长途巴士意外，金宝车祸命案…
就连自己朋友的亲人也因为车祸而逝世了。
说真的，太多了，多得让人担心。

那天早上，我开车到学校上课。
奇怪，怎么那么多车行驶得那么慢啊？
原来对面有一辆学生巴士和两辆罗里来个连环撞。
我看到学生巴士的窗口玻璃都破了。
人呢？学生们呢？他们去了哪里？没事吧？
走着走着，我看见有人带领着一群学生们走路上学去。
是巴士的错？还是罗里的疏忽？谁该负责？

下午，回家路途中，想着一些不明白的课题。
怪了，平时不塞车的村路竟然塞了十五分钟。
原来一辆小罗里在路中央发生意外了。
罗里头不见了，我却在路旁的沟渠看到了它。
路中央就只剩下罗里的身体，凹得不成形了。
路上都是满满的碎玻璃，车子慢慢地越过去。
来了许多警察和路人，也动用了两辆拖车。
司机应该伤得不轻，这场意外又是怎样发生的呢？

从小到大，老师常说马路如虎口。
这些一连串的车祸，意外验证了老师的话。
我经常开车，因此我非常明白这个道理。
所以，珍惜生命，安全第一，小心开车。
不要因为一时的疏忽，造成一世的遗憾。

在这个周末，我去了男友家的小渔村。
一路上，我看见许多小鸟在天空中飞旋。
是鸟吗？不，不是鸟！是少见的小老鹰…
比起老鹰，小鹰真的可爱多了。
就好比人，年轻的我们总比老时好看多了。
小鹰很有自信，甚至自豪地展现它那美丽的翱翔。
我们更应该好好珍惜那短暂又有限的青春。
一旦溜走，再也没有机会回到我们的身边了。

Emo Day Again

Emo-ing recently…
I have my own problems.
I have my own pressure.

But you never understand me.
You never agree what I do.
You never say yes what I ask.
So, what for I tell you?
So, what for I respect you?
Since you are not respected me first as well.

I asked myself.
Did I wrong?
Did I wrong with my decision?
I have my own opinion too.
Again, I want to remind myself.
I’m going to 20.

I should have a 20 years old life.
Not a controlled life.
And you are over control on me.
I’m a teenager.
Teenagers have their life styles.
And you can’t change it with your mind.

I think I won’t tell you all these things.
Once I ask, you will scold me once.
If you can’t change, I try to change.
But please respect me as well.
I have my temper also.
If not, I will leave you one day.
Without telling you…

Can you respect my privacy?

Once I back home, my buttock haven't stick on the chiar. And you keep asking me all the stupid questions.You know that I don't like this kind of questions. Where I went? Where I overnight? Hey... I just want to say only once, and I don't want to repeat anymore. What kind of attitude you had? I'm your daughter but you don't even believe me? You never respect me at all...

I'm going to 20 soon. But how you treat me? You thought that I'm still 3 years old? Or 13 years old? I have my own privacy too. I have my own opinion. But... When you gonna to hear me? You cut down my freedom, even my right of speaking. You wanted me to do this and that. But what is your reaction when I tell you about my demand? Just a simple request, and you try to ignore me. Would you know my feeling?

You are the one who made me lost the feeling to this house. You are the one who made me hate this home. You don't even let me expressing my voice. I lived for so many years. And I have my own mind but you don't even know what is that. This is because you never care about me. What you care? You should know abuot that. I can't stand it anymore. I just want my freedom and privacy back.

For this period, I don't demand anything from you. But... Please do respect me. I need my privacy so much since it was a part of my life. I just want to tell you that I know what am I doing anywhere and anytime. I'm very clear about that. I will tell you if I feel that it is the time to tell you all. Please trust me and my mind as well. Don't worry, I won't make you disappointed. I just need my freedom back.

回了就能解决吗？

那天，在我家，我们聊了起来。
我说：“燕，你都快二十一了，终于可以投票了。哈哈！”
修：“对哦！二十一可以投票了。”
他接着说：“不过还是不投比较好，不然等下像第二个赵明福。嘻...”
燕说：“我要投叻！不然等下他叫我回中国就够力。”
我们都笑了，这只是个幽默形式的对话。

没错，我们都快满二十一了。
我们就快可以像其他大人一样，为自己支持的党投票了。
重点不是在这里，而是在于“回中国”。

最近，许多人都为这三个字而烦。
其实，这里多元化的特色让我们在世界排名有一脚。
为什么我们要这样伤害自己的名誉呢？
所谓的多元种族，就不应该只顾自己。
我们总不能那么自私，总得想想大局维护一切。

这个世界是大家的，我们不该分你和我。
如果这是你的，那是我的，那么世界就散了。
敌人也会慢慢地入侵占领...
趁还来得及，请大家团结一致吧！