教育可以改变吗？

你明知道我们的时间有限，你也知道自己应该做什么。
可是你却不懂得利用时间，你却不知道自己在做什么。
我已不是第一次观察你了，你应该知道我是关心你的。
那天听说你在班上的举动不礼貌，不尊重老师的宗教。
我也听说你既有可能会被开除，你的母亲非常的担心。
我们来到了一间无人的课室，她希望我们好好地劝你。
她要你很有诚意地向我们道歉不果，失望地离开课室。
我们所说的话，你不是听不懂，因为我看见你流泪了。
因为最后的机会，你终于很有诚心地向我们鞠躬道歉。
你的母亲告诉我你是因为某些事情导致心理不太平衡。
但不要紧，我们会帮你的。我希望可以看到正面的你。

小孩们的心灵其实可以很简单，为何却把他们弄复杂？
有一个小女孩放学的时候很开心，她说爸爸会来接她。
她说她的爸爸在外工作，时常都是由妈妈来接她回家。
恰巧，我们正用红包来折制金鱼，我们玩得不亦乐乎。
她告诉我她要折金鱼给她家里的所有人，也包括女佣。
我陪她完成她的小小心愿，至到她的爸爸来接她回家。
她把最后的三只金鱼给完成了，也带了七只金鱼回家。
在她穿着校鞋时，她的弟妹好像有什么东西跟她说的。
只有一年级的她体型很小，小得让人总是想要呵护她。
可是我却看到了不同的画面，她不是我想象的那么弱。
小小的她就好像个大姐姐，懂得安慰与呵护她的弟妹。
那画面突然让我有一种感觉涌上心头，我却无法形容。
其实他们都会成长学习，发挥潜能，而我们正在协助。

今天有位学生的父亲，耽误了工作来到他孩子的学校。
他的目的很简单，为的就是帮孩子买新学年的运动衣。
在等候的我看到了那位父亲毫无抗拒地在烈日下等候。
留着汗水的他，看见孩子背着书包出来时，满脸笑容。
他的疲劳也都忘了，他可是个非常尽责的慈祥父亲啊！
除此之外，那天我也遇见过了一位男学生的野蛮父亲。
当他上来的时候，全身都是烟酒味，还破口大骂孩子。
我看了都感到心酸，孩子的心灵就这样被父亲污染了。
那位父亲从不顾虑孩子的感受，那孩子又会怎么想呢？
孩子会怀疑父爱去了哪里，甚至再也不会期待父爱了。
其实他们的希望很简单，就是有个让他幸福快乐的家。

教育行业的确不简单，我们服务的是那群天真的孩子。
对我而言，我不会要求或强迫他们拿好成绩给我看看。
不管在品行上，还是学业运动方面，有改善就是进步。
而你们所答应我的事情，真的好希望看到你们的改变。

Did I? Should I?

Did I choose the right way? Did I think properly before? Should I change my way start from now? Is it too late? Many people asked me to follow my real thinking or feeling. But they never think that why should I ask them if I already know the answer. Will you ask your friends if you already know that 1-1=0? ( I don't want to use 1+1=2 because it is too simple. Haha... ) Will you ask your friends if you already know your own problems? Some will say yes and some will say no. For me, depends on what problem is it. Everyone has his or her point. I already entered a room, a non-light room which was full with exploitation but a little kindness. This made me so sad, even more stress recently. I felt suffered and tired in that kind of room. I wanted to escape but I needed to wait. I needed to wait for a good timing. Sometime, I wonder what is the limitation for exploitation. How it work? No answer at all... I had a friend who has been disappointed in a love affair, I think. I knew he was very sad at this moment. And what I told him was the same thing. Sometimes, we would like to persist in between holding and giving up. So, we do what we should do for now. But how bout me? I felt stressed when I gave him this sentences. This world is going to end soon. Did I know what should I did? I need a plan, a plan for my future. Even just one day...

31st December 2009 - My 19th Birthday

Yea, it was the end of 2009...
And i can't see anything on the sky at genting...
When we were coundown-ing on 24th DEc 2009 night.
I had my 3 days job for the last week.
I had a gathering with my previous colleague.
Lian Ay Ling is going to study at UTAR Sg. Long.
Wendy is going back to Sabah to continue her study.
Vinjing is going back to her school for Form 4 this year.
And me, will stay at here to wait for them coming back.
That night, we went to celebrate sl's birthday.
It was really really unforgettable day for me!!
Yea, althought it was not my birthday...
And I celebrated my birthday at 12am at sy's house.
Thanks for choosing my favourite Pikachu cake.
The 1st one who bless me was not important anymore.
Because everyone had same position in my heart.
I was fair to everyone. No extra love, no cheating...
After I woke up, we went for breakfast at Wangsa Maju.
He got work on my birthday, as a tuition teacher.
He asked me to join his family due to scare me alone.
Yea, I went out with his family members finally.
His mum, 3 sisters & his sis's kids included me in a car.
We went to Tong Shan Hospital for his mum's checking.
We ate my Pikachu cake in the hospital canteen.
They realised that day was my 19th birthday...
And the kids said " Happy Birthday " for me sincerity.
They were so cute at all... They were naive.
After that, we went shopping at 1 Utama, Kepong.
I played happily with the 3 kids.
The oldest one liked to tell me stories.
She already told me don't know how many stories.
While his mum and his sisters were shopping at all.
They went to boutique, jewellery shop, and so on...
They bought me a T-shirt and a pants at there.
I was shocked and wanted to give back money for them.
Because this present was not cheap at all.
They said that was their 1st time to give me a present.
And asked me to accept it. Finally, I did...
Thank you for his mum and his sisters...
After that, we back home to wait for him & his 2nd bro.
At night, we went to countdown-ing for 2010.
The celebration was located at Desa Park City.
Finally, we enjoyed the fireworks for about 10 minutes.
That time, I satisfied with overing my 19th birthday.
And it was a new beginning for 2010. Happy New Year!


But I'm still thinking that I am a fool...
Yes, I am...

汤圆

我忘了前年有没有吃汤圆，印象中应该有吧！
我已忘了去年的冬至，我是否也有品尝汤圆。
今年的冬至，我不敢想我有没有机会吃汤圆。
因为，二零零九年的冬至，我还在外面工作。
当我要回家时，那已是冬至过后的第三天了。
不知道我那最近才温暖起来的家还有汤圆吗？
不知道我那最近学会体谅的妈妈有做汤圆吗？
不知道我那一直都在操劳的爸爸有吃汤圆吗？
人家总是告诉我，吃了汤圆就等于老了一岁。
如果是这样，我倒不想爸爸妈妈吃了老一岁。
有哪一位子女是希望自己的爸妈越吃越老呢？
但每年的冬至，我却希望我弟弟吃了大一岁。
真的好希望他快高长大，思想成熟乖乖听话。
这样一来，弟弟就可以不必再让我们操心了。
安顺的阿姨应该会有做汤圆给我姐姐品尝吧？
虽然不是妈妈做的，不过希望姐姐吃得开心。
在安顺的她现在有工作，不再让我们担心了。
虽然老家只有我爸妈和弟弟三人一起过冬至，
但我希望他们和平地快乐地享受冬至和汤圆。
当我回家时，冬至过了，汤圆没了都不要紧。
因为，我那慢慢温暖起来的家才是最重要的！

在此，希望各位在这个冬至吃了汤圆大团圆！

孩子们，加油！

结束了，一切都结束了。
就在星期四，伴我成长生活营落幕了。
长达四个星期的假期生活营，
哭过的哭过了，笑的也笑过了。
一路上看着他们的改变，
我们都笑了，意味着他们进步了。
虽然还是有一些问题学生，
但我们还是对他们有一点点的期望。
星期三是生活营的最后第二天，
连老师因为家事而提早离开。
同学们对连老师依依不舍，
再加上伤感的音乐从我电脑播放出来，
他们早已在连老师的致词中落泪。
嘉淇，连老师最疼的一个学生。
她并不知道她妈妈因为难产而去世了，
所以连老师对她特别照顾。
在连老师走了以后，
嘉淇亲手画了连老师，
再抱着那幅图画痛哭。
那场面真叫人心酸啊！
星期四，生活营的最后一天了。
有的男生穿的很帅，很有型。
有的女生打扮得漂漂亮亮。
最后一天了，他们当然是尽情地玩。
阿彬，是个坏蛋懒惰虫。
前一天因为一直说谎而被我罚了。
但在星期四时，他穿得帅帅的，
也把那件事忘到干干净净了。
他又跑又跳，真拿他没办法。
院长就跟他说了一句话。
“我知道你今天很靓仔，很帅，
但是靓仔不是大完的，
所以不要过分地跑到这样。”
老师们都笑饱了。哈哈！
在候老师为他们准备最后的游戏时，
我却负责和他们谈谈心。
以下是邱老师给他们的话：
今天是大家的最后一天了。
你们再也看不到老师，
你们再也见不到老师生气，
再也看不到老师骂你们，
再也不会看到老师处罚你们。
老师还是希望你们继续进步。
你们不用为老师而哭...
我们也不值得你们为我们哭。
因为老师很凶，很坏蛋，
时常骂你们，时常用藤条打你们。
不管怎样，老师都是为你们好。
生活营结束后，你们就等于毕业了。
你们都长大了，是时候懂事了。
你们都不能再那么任性调皮了。
答应老师乖乖听话，好不好？
说到这里，他们的头都低了下来。
虽然心里难受，他们还是说了“好！”
游戏过后，茶会就开始了。
一些学生还会拿食物给我们吃，
果然是教导有方啊！哈哈！
之后，院长宣布获胜的组别是小虎。
他们本来是排在第二的，
之后因为他们的努力和团结，
超越星星组而拿下第一名。
最后我们有最佳作文奖，
霆浩的确是有写作天分的。
接下来就是最佳进步奖，
文浩是真的进步了很多。
以前他一直都会有负面的想法，
现在他都改观了，拥有了正面想法。
最佳女学员是Jessica...
只要她改掉那小小的缺点，
她就真的是一个又乖又踊跃的女生。
进杰就是最佳男学员，
他自己也没想到可以拿奖。
无可否认，他真的很符合那些条件。
之后他告诉我说他不是好学员。
我劝他说，这都是老师们的决定。
我们都认同是哪个人就是那个人。
“老师们都对你有信心，
我们都相信你可以做到的，
为什么你对自己那么没有信心呢？
你也不小了，会照顾其他人了，
要告诉自己是可以的，知道吗？”
他听了点点头，说了：“ 知道！”
过后，老师们就好象开签唱会一样。
大部分的学生都拿着礼物给我们签名。
当天，我们拍了很多很多的照片。
这些都是我们在星光的回忆。
眼看老师与学生们一个一个地离开，
我才知道我有多不舍这个生活营，
多不舍这里的每一个老师每一位学生。
连老师说的一点也没错，
世上没有不散之席。
有一天，我们还是要分开。
不要因为这次的分离而感到悲伤难过。
老师希望你们不要放弃，努力向前冲。
以后有缘有的话，我们还会再相聚的。
现在，让我们一起加油！加油！

cooperation

yesterday, i followed seow yen's car to pwtc for edu fair. thanks a lot, uncle & aunty! well... i took some informations of courses from there bcoz i dunno what course shud i choose & study for my future. haih... wat a big problem now. i collected MBBS course for cl. and biotech or nursing for me as well...
today, we were so angry wit the monkeys. complained tis, complained tat... but well, we carried out a special activity today. it was cooking! teachers had to brings the team members went for the market to buy the ingredients wit onli RM12.00. =.= they were so so so excited.
our team decided to prepare a pot of soup. tats my idea ok? haha... teachers had onli giv them advices but not cook for them. so i asked them to insert the chicken cubes to boil the water n put fishballs 1st. and then taufu... after tat the purple vegetable! and then bla bla bla... siap!! we were the faster!! haha... after tat, my team members quarreled. i talked a lot to them wit some advices. i know they understood wat i said bcoz they felt guilty. haha...
one group prepared fruit n vegetables. another one was tang yuan... we waited for our principal to judge the result. but she asked us to try aso. wahaha... i liked my team's soup lo... the other teachers said NICE!! haha... finally, principal gav the no 1 for my team! yeah!!! the children were so happy. well... finally, all the soup finished by them. i onli tried for 3 spoons lo... T.T
well... i think they start to know wat s cooperation and the power collected by all the members together. i saw some improvement in tat team today. they were no more bising, no more gaduh, no more marah... keep it on, children. u all can do the best! gud luck!! =)

一只大狼

你只会说你知道他们在想什么，
你只会说他们心里其实有心机，
你也只会说他们已开始作怪了。
但是，为什么你不想想你自己？
你知道你的心里在想些什么吗？
你不觉得你自己也会有心机吗？
你不认为自己也开始在作怪了？
你的眼神一天比一天更恐怖了，
让我们都一致认同对你有意见。
你对人的态度已开始变回原形，
让我们不得已对你有极大防备。
其实最有心机的是你这只大狼！
其实早就作怪的是你这只坏蛋！
你那一副正正经经好好人的脸，
真的让我们被你欺骗了好几天。
人不可貌相，海水不能斗量啊！
难怪会有那么多人见到你就跑。
你怎么看不清楚你有的是什么？
为何还不甘心地去争取别人的？
难道你不知道就因为你的自私，
就会造成你四周围的人受苦吗？
是不是这样你就会活得更开心？
为何你的思想越来越恐怖变态？
我们是从你的讲话语气得知的。
你不用偷偷地神秘地观察我们，
你有胆这样我们也有胆那样的。
我只想在这里告诉你这只大狼，
虽然报应还没找上你家的洞口，
但我相信迟早你会一无所有的。