教育可以改变吗？

你明知道我们的时间有限，你也知道自己应该做什么。
可是你却不懂得利用时间，你却不知道自己在做什么。
我已不是第一次观察你了，你应该知道我是关心你的。
那天听说你在班上的举动不礼貌，不尊重老师的宗教。
我也听说你既有可能会被开除，你的母亲非常的担心。
我们来到了一间无人的课室，她希望我们好好地劝你。
她要你很有诚意地向我们道歉不果，失望地离开课室。
我们所说的话，你不是听不懂，因为我看见你流泪了。
因为最后的机会，你终于很有诚心地向我们鞠躬道歉。
你的母亲告诉我你是因为某些事情导致心理不太平衡。
但不要紧，我们会帮你的。我希望可以看到正面的你。

小孩们的心灵其实可以很简单，为何却把他们弄复杂？
有一个小女孩放学的时候很开心，她说爸爸会来接她。
她说她的爸爸在外工作，时常都是由妈妈来接她回家。
恰巧，我们正用红包来折制金鱼，我们玩得不亦乐乎。
她告诉我她要折金鱼给她家里的所有人，也包括女佣。
我陪她完成她的小小心愿，至到她的爸爸来接她回家。
她把最后的三只金鱼给完成了，也带了七只金鱼回家。
在她穿着校鞋时，她的弟妹好像有什么东西跟她说的。
只有一年级的她体型很小，小得让人总是想要呵护她。
可是我却看到了不同的画面，她不是我想象的那么弱。
小小的她就好像个大姐姐，懂得安慰与呵护她的弟妹。
那画面突然让我有一种感觉涌上心头，我却无法形容。
其实他们都会成长学习，发挥潜能，而我们正在协助。

今天有位学生的父亲，耽误了工作来到他孩子的学校。
他的目的很简单，为的就是帮孩子买新学年的运动衣。
在等候的我看到了那位父亲毫无抗拒地在烈日下等候。
留着汗水的他，看见孩子背着书包出来时，满脸笑容。
他的疲劳也都忘了，他可是个非常尽责的慈祥父亲啊！
除此之外，那天我也遇见过了一位男学生的野蛮父亲。
当他上来的时候，全身都是烟酒味，还破口大骂孩子。
我看了都感到心酸，孩子的心灵就这样被父亲污染了。
那位父亲从不顾虑孩子的感受，那孩子又会怎么想呢？
孩子会怀疑父爱去了哪里，甚至再也不会期待父爱了。
其实他们的希望很简单，就是有个让他幸福快乐的家。

教育行业的确不简单，我们服务的是那群天真的孩子。
对我而言，我不会要求或强迫他们拿好成绩给我看看。
不管在品行上，还是学业运动方面，有改善就是进步。
而你们所答应我的事情，真的好希望看到你们的改变。

Did I? Should I?

Did I choose the right way? Did I think properly before? Should I change my way start from now? Is it too late? Many people asked me to follow my real thinking or feeling. But they never think that why should I ask them if I already know the answer. Will you ask your friends if you already know that 1-1=0? ( I don't want to use 1+1=2 because it is too simple. Haha... ) Will you ask your friends if you already know your own problems? Some will say yes and some will say no. For me, depends on what problem is it. Everyone has his or her point. I already entered a room, a non-light room which was full with exploitation but a little kindness. This made me so sad, even more stress recently. I felt suffered and tired in that kind of room. I wanted to escape but I needed to wait. I needed to wait for a good timing. Sometime, I wonder what is the limitation for exploitation. How it work? No answer at all... I had a friend who has been disappointed in a love affair, I think. I knew he was very sad at this moment. And what I told him was the same thing. Sometimes, we would like to persist in between holding and giving up. So, we do what we should do for now. But how bout me? I felt stressed when I gave him this sentences. This world is going to end soon. Did I know what should I did? I need a plan, a plan for my future. Even just one day...

31st December 2009 - My 19th Birthday

Yea, it was the end of 2009...
And i can't see anything on the sky at genting...
When we were coundown-ing on 24th DEc 2009 night.
I had my 3 days job for the last week.
I had a gathering with my previous colleague.
Lian Ay Ling is going to study at UTAR Sg. Long.
Wendy is going back to Sabah to continue her study.
Vinjing is going back to her school for Form 4 this year.
And me, will stay at here to wait for them coming back.
That night, we went to celebrate sl's birthday.
It was really really unforgettable day for me!!
Yea, althought it was not my birthday...
And I celebrated my birthday at 12am at sy's house.
Thanks for choosing my favourite Pikachu cake.
The 1st one who bless me was not important anymore.
Because everyone had same position in my heart.
I was fair to everyone. No extra love, no cheating...
After I woke up, we went for breakfast at Wangsa Maju.
He got work on my birthday, as a tuition teacher.
He asked me to join his family due to scare me alone.
Yea, I went out with his family members finally.
His mum, 3 sisters & his sis's kids included me in a car.
We went to Tong Shan Hospital for his mum's checking.
We ate my Pikachu cake in the hospital canteen.
They realised that day was my 19th birthday...
And the kids said " Happy Birthday " for me sincerity.
They were so cute at all... They were naive.
After that, we went shopping at 1 Utama, Kepong.
I played happily with the 3 kids.
The oldest one liked to tell me stories.
She already told me don't know how many stories.
While his mum and his sisters were shopping at all.
They went to boutique, jewellery shop, and so on...
They bought me a T-shirt and a pants at there.
I was shocked and wanted to give back money for them.
Because this present was not cheap at all.
They said that was their 1st time to give me a present.
And asked me to accept it. Finally, I did...
Thank you for his mum and his sisters...
After that, we back home to wait for him & his 2nd bro.
At night, we went to countdown-ing for 2010.
The celebration was located at Desa Park City.
Finally, we enjoyed the fireworks for about 10 minutes.
That time, I satisfied with overing my 19th birthday.
And it was a new beginning for 2010. Happy New Year!


But I'm still thinking that I am a fool...
Yes, I am...